now i think ill dedicate this entry to my two best buddies i have. hoho if you think im getting emotional and start to cry and praise them,you thought wrong. we're guys. so let's just make do with the kutok-ing.
so before i start..
Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin!

for the bike-riding to Esplanade, supper at Zam Zam's, soccer matches which we seem to always lose everytime i play(dammit am i a jinx or what?!), endless bollywood movies and clips yusoff tries to instill in us, shopping spree which ends up with nobody buying anything at all, the girls we used to admire and thought dammit we'll never get them, from the very much kental ,esp the mIRC days, to a (as YuS like to put it..) slightly cooler days right now...
THANKS A JAGAZILLIONAIRE dudes!


from the kental days.
from left: YuS ThE MaN(hoho!), semOtRed(HOHO!) and semOtOren(even louder hoho!)
notice YuS ThE MaN's fashion paux man. with that cap terbalik,sweater in what tropic country?, plus all d accesories.. No wonder he's the MAN!!!!



now slightly cooler days.
ok we're still kental. so what?!
geek chic is THE in thing at the moment. LOL!

\/ Peace to Dil Chata Hai!

FM channel: dil chata hai from the eyes of a little child

no thanks to a bug(buzzz) ive gotten the flu. had 2 days MC no less thanks to it. but it's a nice thing in a way i got to watch mtv all day long. hoho! oh well i've got a stinking parade rehearsal tomorrow no less.

but the weekend has been fun. yeah.

first up was friday night D&D at Bukit Batok Civil Service Club!
let's bring sexy back yeah!

with the She-Devils,Noris the Diva and Maia Lee in the house bebeh. lots of dancing,lots of ehem grinding? lots of photos. dont think ill post em up. too explicit. LOL!
but stinking tangan tak cebok,i didnt manage to get that Sony PSP lucky draw i was eyeing. dang..

Saturday was raya with the best buddies and their repective partners minus Awal and me. so me and Awal were a couple for the day. hoho!


and Sunday was with my Nadi Kesenianeans minus my 2 lovers who apparently had to ditch me!!! yes you Kin and you Zah!



no less i got to meet them d other weekend at Zah's open house..


so yeah it has been a wild weekend. non stop outing for me. thus the flu bug. thanks to the gallons of oren,tonnes of food and the travelling. but peace we'll still carry on..we'll carry on...

FM channel: sex,booze and rock and roll? nahh more of sexy,oren and loads of cheekis!

i asked a good bud of mine about why am i having such heart luck.
he replied "maybe God just want to save you."
haha maybe quite true enough. oh well...



the family, kids plus bibik.
danish just cant keep still hence d blurred face.


still cant keep still..


perfect!

FM channel: hai duit raya lupa nak diberi~

Ooh tomorrow's the Day!
Selamat Hari Raya Eid Fitri to all. Apologies for all d wrongs,sins,crimes,annoyance,irritation etc. I've ever caused to every single soul that knows me,knows you and the don't knows yous and mes.

Time can pass very fast when you just start to savour the moment.
I thought the first day of fasting was just yesterday.
Ok no it was a month ago. I remember persevering not to break fast when all the rest around me did. Especially after a run around the camp. Followed by a gym session. Followed by soccer. Followed by the endless repairing of junk trucks. Followed by a 3km walk out of camp. Followed by a 15 minutes walk from interchange to home. Followed by the endless speech on the radio. And then comes the Azan.

But time can be very slow when you're bored.
Was thinking..
I remember that never-ending in-flight information screen that tells passengers how far they've come, and how many miles remain. It's so sloooooowwwwwwwwwwww. Stare at it intently enough and time goes backwards. And do we really need to know that the outside temperature is -59 degrees Fahrenheit? Does this information comfort us with the knowledge that should we crash and somehow survive, death by exposure willbe swift and merciful? Also, Celcius conversion seems unnecessary,as around -59, electrons probably crawl to a stop, like Ping-Pong balls on a basement floor. Ok, i know it's 222.6 degrees Kelvin,-50.56 degrees Celcius.

FM channel: Eid Mubarak.

someone just taught me good stuff..

preun bok wa khun pen khon ngaai ngaai... jing reu plao tirak?
hohoho.

today better be a good day.
no it better be a glorious gorgeous day.
let's pray.
altogether now...

FM channel: if hope is a myth, then what's magic?

Disini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia ku denganmu

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Disini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yang lain
Mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
Sayang ku akan hilang

If u love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
Wouldn’t reach my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart

All the world's a stage and the men and women are merely players
Then whom does mine belong to?

FM Channel: My Heart

Oh baby dont you know I suffer?
Oh baby can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretenses
How long before you let me go?
I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth

You set my soul alight
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

Cos' MSN Messenger is being a supermassive arsehole..
wargh!

heard Muse coming..true?or not?

FM channel: The Unintended Supermassive Blackhole

dont be afraid, maybe its our fate
just wait and see im gonna shout about it
its just you and me against the world
don't waste the time for tomorrow

hey digital
you're nothing but a bitch on strings
you'll be back milking cows before you cash the cheque
I'll just wait around till you fade away like the rest
like the best of the best

do you understand my monologue?
These are the words of the unsophisticated money machines

FM channel: so let's put them aside..let the worries behind us

i realised ive not updated for near 2 mths.aint tt cool or wart!
being missing is kinda cool. n getting emersed in work.tuition.work.ndp.work.work.work.tuition.ndp.

talking bout ndp..
lotsa goofing around. lotsa perspiring around. not forgetting eye candies.
part touching time President acknowledged our salute.

and then d celebration! and the off days i accumulated!

and celebration reminds me of Teacher's Day.
Happy Teacher's Day to all Teachers. -.-"
not tt im one. but teaching in a tuition centre makes me one. i guess..


some of the things kids do..

damn dis entry is boring.. oh well ill try someting else next time...

FM channel: Teacher Teaches Teachings

i hate humidity.
humidity feels like hundreds of strangers touching you.

FM channel: it's getting hott in herre.

im getting tired at this.
too tired.
jaded.
i think im succumbed to this fate.
why. why.
you're teasing me.

oh and i got myself a novel.
jPod by Douglas Coupland.
no idea why i got myself a book.
Mom's cool with the idea.
she thinks im getting in touch with my intellectual roots.

Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want

Roses are red
Some diamonds are blue
Chivalry is dead
But you're still kinda cute

FM channel: Promiscous. I be the first to admit it, I’m curious about you, you seem so innocent

and i would wish
upon a star
but that star
it doesn't shine..
so read my book
with a boring ending
a short story
of a sorry life..

and when i wake you
i'll be the first thing you see
and your eyes shall never set free
from me

FM channel: unpredictable complexity

i realise i share the same birth date as Patrick Vieira and Zinedine Zidane.
cool!
tt explains...

FM channel: born among the greatest

Happy Good 21 Day to me!
or happy sick day to me..
or happy ive-been-sick-for-one-whole-week-and-sick-keeps-coming day
sigh...

first the 39.5 degree Influenza.
then the most terrible tonsillitis ive ever had.
cant swallow food. cant swallow water.
now don swallow anyting also hurts..
sneeze also hurts...
then in came d icing to the cake.
i cut my thumb really deep.
at work.
great. simply great.
WARGHHH!



-sakit tu tanda2 dah nak besar

-sakit tu pasal nak hilangkan dosa

Which one to believe?

FM channel: happy bird-day to me

i love this song. forever.

Super Furry Animals - Juxtapozed With You

It's easy when you know how
To get along without Biff! Bang! Pow!
And if I see that you're fed up,
I'll stop and give you a leg up.

Over priced unreal estate,
Surreal estate,
The highest price they've hit to date,
Creating new divides and tension.

You've got to tolerate,
All those people that you hate,
I'm not in love with you,
But I wont hold that against you,
You've got to tolerate,
Some of those people that you hate,
I'm not in love with you,
But I wont hold that against you.

This is a tale of 2 city/situations,
Mutual appreciation,
Away from narrow pre-conception,
Avoiding conflict hyper-tension,
Non-phobic word aerobic.
This was my domain,
Till someone stole my name.

You've got to tolerate ...etc.
Let's get juxtaposed, juxtaposed,Just suppose I juxtapose with you...

FM channel: Rings around the world

it's been a sad month.
nevertheless Allah loves them more.

Al-Fateha to:
-Abang Jai's wife; Saleha bte Saleh
-Mohamed Faizal bin Omar

Semoga Allah swt merahmati roh2 mereka.

FM channel: Al Fateha...

suddup lah..faaaark it

apparently after infinite weeks of being an annoying,self-indulging,cant-stop-talking geeky schizo schezel... i think its time to be back to my old,last-century,wartime history self.
the textbook,comicbook,storybook very quiet scared of everyone geeky self.

Best way to converse is not to talk at all.
why?
it avoids controversy.
it avoids putting urself in a spot.
it avoids being irritating and annoying.
best of all..
there's no reason to be oblivious about things.
AND,
there's not reason to be at all sorry.
both for something you do or something you dont.
cos silence stays in the backdrop.

just stay quiet and observe the beautiful things around you.
its time to hear d birds sing.
its time to feel the morning breeze.
its time to see the sun rise.
its time to not to talk.

on the contrary..

semangkin hari semangkin serasi
bagai pagi dgn sinar matahari
bagai malam dgn kerdipan bintang yg berseri

i wish ah!
faarkkk it lahhh..
baiiik!!

FM channel: schizo schezel

boiling point yet endorphins on a high

its fucking irritating tt some people think they are so good they cant accept criticism and move on and do something about it. and all they do is give fucking stupid reasons. fucking shit. yes humans make mistakes. but with this kind of continuing attitude, humans will make mistakes till the end of time. fucking hell shit bloody sia hamba koo ke nyeng kweng kuo!

strive for perfection lah kanna!
even if there is no such thing as perfection.. there's something as close to perfection and that's something to be proud of and not some cock up thingy!

if this continues that's the end of everything. so much for we working so hard to give the platform you are in now.

if you think so highly of yourself, fucking hell get out of that slug bed of yours and get out there and do someting about it. fuck up attitude. no way is help gonna come if this attitude carries on. fun yes. but there's time to work. time management. ever heard of that? go read up time management for dummies lah fuck.

and i only have 2 words for this kind of things.
faaaaaark it.

anyway the weekend has been good for me. been absolutely fabolos.
thanks to ..
enlightening by zah.
pyo-pyoing with kin.
where's wally-ing with irfan.
recollecting with jaja.

and i met my 2 bestest friends in secondary school in town.
i miss both of you hotty darlings! even though i doubt u guys can read this. hah!
sigh should call them up for catching up...

and fried mars with vanilla ice cream is ohhhh heaven and earth.
it melts in your mouth not in your hands
close your eyes and imagine
imagine the combi of warm fried mars with vanilla and chocolate syrup..
as u feel the warm crunchy fried mars melting in your mouth
and the vanilla ice cream with its cold tingling feeling in your teeth
slowly it meshes together..
creating a high explosion endorphin level within you
as you savour every moment
and noone nobody nothing can take that moment of erotic orgasm..
and slowly..the crunchy mars..chocolaty taste..cool vanilla..
slowly slides down your throat..
and when i wake you
i'll be the first thing you see
and you'll realise that you love me..

fried mars vanilla ice cream..
im gonna miss you
but ill come and get you

To me, you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me
But you just can't see
You turn every head but you don't see me

FM channel: A Midsummer Night's Dream

its Saturday!
its here again! im not working yeah!
and i did my normal routine.. the newspapers..the tv..slug into my blanket again..
and suddenly..
HOTCAKES!
and its already 11am.. great..!
ive just have to wait for tomoro den..sighs..
i have to get my hotcakes before a week of endless overtime without pay and offs starts!

ever felt the feeling..
as u wake up in the morning
ever felt there's just so much things tt needs to be done
yet you just slug into ur own bed..
ur laziness sinks in
as you tuck urself
under ur blanket..
the warmth feeling
as you put ur hands under ur pillow
and look towards the window
you saw the blue sky
and know itll be a good day..
well this is what made me miss my hotcakes! -.-"

anyway take a look at this kitten...


Cy, short for Cyclops, a kitten born with only one eye and no nose, is shown in this photo provided by its owner in Redmond, Ore., on Dec. 28. The kitten, a ragdoll breed, which died after living for one day, was one of two in the litter. Its sibling was born normal and healthy.

more reports here

How extraordinary..

My heart is as frail as a dove
And my spirit is as weak as a rose
See my sorrow, feel my pain
You're my refuge, You're my reason,
My strength in this beautiful place
That's where I find God
-The Afters - You -

FM channel: nevermin...oh just goblocks world..

i miss eating hotcakes.
i want to eat hotcakes.
i miss. i want. i eat.
i hotcakes.
i want hotcakes.
yes its 1238am and im craving for hotcakes.
i had an interesting idea to blog about just then.
but after falling asleep and awaken by a phone call.
i forgot what i blog idea-ed about.
-.-"
now im writing this worthless,pointless entry..
just to tell the whole world im craving hotcakes.
is this a hint?
and yeah today i can sleep soundly.
cos it made my day!
after a day of gruesome work.
after a day of last minute fault findings.
after a day of sweat and downpour.
it made my day!
i want my hotcakes!
one day ill be with you.
yes you hotcakes.

FM channel: nevermindagoblocks. but mind the hotcakes pls.

you know when you're at work..
and d workload u have just seems so annoyingly alot..
and you just want to be away from the computer and have fun?
well receiving workloads havent been much easier..



anyway here's some stuff bout ur bizarre bodily functions....

What are pins and needles?
Everyone has experienced that sharp tingling sensation in the toes, legs or fingers at some time or another. Pins and needles, or parasthesia, as they are known, generally come about due to pressure on a nerve that is close to the skin surface. Common pins and needles 'hot spots' include the elbow, when the 'funny bone' nerve is subjected to pressure, and the calf or foot from pressure on the nerve below the knee. In the same way, when, for example, we stand up after sitting in a particular position for a long time and our legs appear to have 'gone to sleep', this is the result of a nerve being compressed and then bouncing back into shape.

Why do your body jerk when you're falling asleep?
Ever been just about to drift off into a blissfully deep sleep when suddenly you feel like you are falling, and your body jerks in shock? What you have experienced is called a 'hypnic jerk'. This often occurs during very light sleep, when your body temperature drops - your heart slows down and your conscious brain gradually relinquishes control of your muscles. The general consensus is that this brain activity can make your larger muscles contract, and that, as your body twitches, another part of your brain invents a 'mini-dream' in which you are falling off a cliff, for example. So, next time you wake up with a 'sleep start', just remember it's simply your body's way of telling your muscles to chill.

FM channel: orbiting across galaxy

this world is full of nevermindagoblocks.
atleast the world im living in.

now for all the shit i do for you
for the little peanuts u give
is this how u repay?
stooppid
simply stoopid
ive never lived in a much more stoopid world than this.
but i know this cud be the stoopidest of all
fuck accuse if u dare
may the right prevail,
the accused be victorious
and YOU be stoopid for eternity

FM channel: the nevermindagoblocks world

tomorrow~ tomorrow ~ i love you~ tomorrow ~
tomorrow ~ has come by ~
bismillah!
the hardwork must pay off!
pray for us everybody!

and guess what? I, Zaki, scored for Egypt!
we're going into the finals! Egypt 2-1 Senegal!

oh well hope tomorrow i score too.
reality check.

FM channel: flying high. tomorrow.

few days to go to d BIG day.haha
darn..trainings has intensified
ive escaped a lot of near-death experiences...
ok lil tad exaggerating..
near heavy-injury experiences..
fell wrongly..flat onto d ground..
almost landed head first..
my leg keeps kicking others' faces..
what else..
im tired..my body aches
battered bruised and broken..hmm exaggerating again..
and being thrown around gives me headaches
3 days off pls here i come..
pray it'll all pay off..
if we dont win i dono wat to say..


His weak soul collapsed,
what strength is there?
but even d smallest creatures
can change the fate of the Earth...

and with all his Might,
behold! He withdrew Sting
onto his chest He holds
behold! Blue glows Sting
the filthy Orcs have come!
be ready! be prepared!
filth wreaks into the silent darkness
for the Orcs are never clean
Shrills broke the dark mute
for the Orcs are coming near...

Be unmerciful!
upon them death has been awaited
Be ruthless!
for Hell they have been destined
And only Victory awaits you
Only Victory condones...

Now unleash It
the burning Light in you
for this is your destiny
it has come
Now unleash It
the lightning courage within you
for you are the Bearer
hope has come
and for every strength you've left,
there's always hope...


As d world is becoming older,
the ones living are becoming bolder,
it's wide clear
eternal end is near
For all the ridiculous cartoons ..,
controversial drawings ..,
and blasted caricatures ...
are some of the Signs
that the End is near
let Him settle with those
who defy His Orders..

but in these terrible events,
please be aware
that there has been some Celebration amongst us.
Happy 20th Birthday Brain.A
the World's First Computer Virus.

FM channel: Flying High Flyer

OAG - permysuri

Imajin aku TVmu
Transmisionku terbit untukmu
Dramaku produk khas siaranmu
Trans-sonet gelora Satelit Cinta

Imajin aku radiomu
Intermisionku orbit untukmu
Iramaku rekord khas hiburanmu
Inter-planet kejora Ke marikh asth-mara

per-MY-suri rumahku
per-MY-suri radarku
per-MY-suri syurgaku
Yang teristimewa

Imajin aku VJmu
Transvisiku terbitan untukmu
Karaktorku ilham khas pedomanmu
Trans-fonik gelora satelit cinta

Imajin aku DJ mu
Intervisionku orbit untukmu
Metaforku iltizam khas buatmu
Inter-sonik kejora Ke-marikh asth-mara

Produksimasifantasikurealiti
Buat yang teristimewa...

sing along now..
and cheerleading is fun.
it's not just for girls.
ready? ok! and 5 6 7 8, 1 2! go!

FM channel: yang teristimewa....who?

over Mount Shadow,a Dark shadow glooms
westward reaching,
over the shadows, wings of darkness blooms,
southward moving.
breaking every hill on sight,
darkening every living with light.
but what see did they? fixed were they ears,
for they feel Its presence with their tears.
as the mountains darkens,
the Dead awakens..

the Dark Lord Towers has risen
from beneath the Shadows it arise
the Lord's black sword is driven
from the sheath beneath all Wise

Get out,you old Wight! Vanish in the moonlight!
Shrivel like the shivering mist,like the winds go wailing,
Out into the barren lands far beyond the mountains!
Come never here again! Leave your barrow empty!
Lost and forgotten be,darker than the darkness,
Where gates stand forever shut,till the world is mended
but will it be?

cold be hand and heart and bone,
and cold be sleep under stone
never more to wake on stony bed,
never,till the Sun fails and the Moon is dead
In the black wind the stars shall die,
and still on gold here let them lie,
till the dark lords lift their hands,
over the dead sea and conquered lands.

will it be mended?
will the Light come forth...
may it be.

FM channel: the dark cold night.......

with Anduril as i valiantly ride. noro lim, noro lim, Asfaloth!
the cold hard lands they bites our hands,
they gnaws our feet.
The rocks and stones are like old bones,
all bare of meat.
But stream and pool is wet and cool:
so nice our feet. and now i wish...
alive without breath

to be alive without breath, as cold as death.
for what purpose now do i seek?
as i head for the Sea. to the Sea! the Sea!
is that all i can see?
long are the waves on the Last Shores falling,
Sweet is your voice in the Long Isle calling..
but no man will discover,
that my leaves are falling...
but what is of me becoming?
this cannot be of me.

Cos' i love the sound of you...

FM channel: pneumatic sounds

na na na na hey hey good bye

oh 2005 is coming to an end. thank god.lets hope next year's gonna be better.
alfateha to all those Muslims tt died from Mother Nature's force. katrina,tsunami etc..
and to those tt died from suicide bombs.

so d new year's coming n im stillliving alhamdulillah. lets hope ill live to see d next next year too. and the next next next year. and d next next next n next year. and the...oh u get my point.
so ive taken every second, every minute,every hour,every day,every month, every year..
step by step eii.. starting to cherish every moment eii.. guilty of taking everything for granted eii..
here comes d new year eii.


took dis pic using a hp camera
even Nature agrees. leave those dark clouds behind.. have a fresh start.
have a mentos fresh mint.

Step by step. start anew. baby steps baby steps..
One small step on tiles, One GIANT step for me.


Tough Times Don't Last. Tough Men Do.
and we did.

a rollercoaster year. expressionally. not a year to remember of course. haha
funny. but 2006 better be a good year. a blardy good year perhaps.

Destiny is calling me. Open up my eager eyes cos I'm Mr. Brightside

oh just sing and dance.
your mind and hearts away.
numa numa yeh. numa numa numa yeh.

FM channel: little devil. kiky little. kikinho. maiyahi maiyahu maiyaho maiyahaha.

oh ive pop-ed. tts news.
im on block leave now. dont really have plans on how to maximise your 10 days block leave.
waiting for my new posting.
command school? dont bother. im on 3 months excuse from running marching and jumping...
sigh.
downgrading is a probability.
service side prolly awaits me.
sigh.
we'll see",they said.

I missed the opportunity
to get you babe to stay with me.
Never thought, I'd regret the excuses that I've made
like a song,it will fade

yes im afraid. so?
now's maybe not a good time.
but then again, when is?
courage. please come to me..

If there's music in the night,
And it's really, really right,
It's the only thing I need.
it intoxicates your mind
All your troubles left behind
So come on and take my lead.
it's not just me who feels it
music plays a mind trick
watch me forget about missing you

oh just break my leg will you.
it'll be easier that way.
more running and jumping could result in fracture",she said.
ah heck.

so i put my feelings out to dry
love, one day again,
i'll have to try.
falling out, making up
it seems such a silly game
why do i never gain?

waiting.
is it you? no it's me..
for the right time?
there is no such thing.

FM channel: saving private..who?

Field camp is over~
beraya with snakes are over
today i can beraya~

n by monday ill be inside tekong again..
for my sitest...

with mosquito bites on my forehead tt look like pimples,
and on my hands
bruises and cuts every where
aches everywhere..
i can now dare to say im...

recruit peter pan!


Tak Bisakah - Peter Pan (OST Alexandria)

hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu
selalu selalu dalam hatiku
ku melangkah sejauh apapun itu
selalu engkau di dalam hatiku

ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
berharap temukan sisa hatimu
mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

reff: tak bisakah kau menungguku
hingga nanti tetap menunggu
tak bisakah kau menuntunku
menemani jalan hidupku

ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
berharap temukan sisa hatimu
mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

dara kau menjadi hidupku
kemana kau tahu isi hati
kutunggu sejenak aku di situ
jalanku jalan menemukanmu

repeat reff

FM channel: the ground is my bed, the sky is my shelter, the rifle is my bolster

Selamat Hari Raya Idl Fitri

A Selamat Hari Raya Idl Fitri to all Muslims in Singapore.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

to anyone who know me or is reading this;
ie: you,yes you reading this..dont look ard.its YOU,

ku susun sepuluh jari ku memohon maaf zahir dan batin atas segala salah silap ku selama ini tidak kira tak sengaja atau disengajakan. mohon maaf. hamba cuma insan yg penuh dgn kesilapan.
selamat menyambut idl fitri.

dis yr is somewhat special yet unspecial hari raya for me..
special cos even after gg thru PT,route marches,range,guard duty....COMPLETELY FULL PUASA! woo! shthank u..shtank u....
maybe no big deal for some of u. but hey its cobaan when ppl ard u start drinking when u most need it...
unspecial cos..ill be celebrating most of d days in green baju kurung.

sigh
life of a servant...

finally.im gonna visit some friends dis weekends in d botanical gardens of tekong.
wild boars,snakes,centipedes,lizards...u guys better prepare ur kueh tarts. muahaha.


Edited from Sepasang Kurung Biru;

di hari yg berbahgia ini
hatiku kosong dan sepi sekali
betapa manis kengani lalu
ku sambut raya bersama dgn mu,oh...(hutan hutan..)

tetamu dtg tetamu pergi
namun tak tiba org ku nanti
hanya sepasang kurung hijau
menjadi teman membuat rindu...

FM channel: servant of all trades. happy hari raya.

So Puasa starts next week on wednesday.
Selamat menyambut Ramadhan to all.
Coincidentally first day puasa ive a 4km march.
how cool. mental toughness gonna be stretched to d max.
cos its d first day!
lets pray i can make it.
cos paying back puasa is dreader den puasa during Ramadhan itself.
Perseverence!

Im so happy Ramadhan has come.finally.
Love Ramadhan.
Pure White Month.

oh thanks zah for d comel comment on my botak head.
cute word.
comel.
paling comel.

Just wanna share a song...
current fav...

Peter Pan - Kupu-Kupu Malam

Ada yang benci dirinya
Ada yang butuh dirinya
Ada yang perlu tuk mencintanya
Ada pula yang kejam menyiksa dirinya

Ini hidup wanita si kupu-kupu malam
Bekerja bertaruh seluruh jiwa raga
Bibir senyum kata harus merayu memanja
Kepada setiap mereka yang datang

Dosakah yang dia kerjakan
Sucikah mereka yang datang
Kadang dia tersenyum dalam tangis
Kadang dia menangis di dalam senyuman

Oo apa yang terjadi terjadilah
Yang dia tahu Tuhan penyayang umatNya
Oo apa yang terjadi terjadilah
Yang dia tahu hanyalah menyambung nyawa

currently happy ! i dono why im happy for ! but i am! yeah !
this happens when u do nothing on book out day.
oh well. booking in back...
neverneverland.

FM channel: peter pan. recruit peter pan.

ended song, new song, endless song?

1130 hours! this recruit of yours will be reporting for duty at neverneverland.
and ill be training up to be peter pan!
Recruit Peter Pan!
all dress up in green ! with a green cap! green socks! green boots! green clothes!
dis better be fun!
and ill have tinkerbelle as a buddy!
ill be learning to fly ~

found out an interesting fact today after listening to my countless mp3s so that i wont miss them.
each song have an ending.
weird. but i want a song with no ending.
cos each time i listen a love song, a happy song, a sad song, a dying song, a marriage song n even songs by elmo..it all have endings. and endings are heartbreaking.

i hate endings. endings break people's hearts.
not that my own life will have an ending too. but that's another story..

your song has ended.
can i ever find my neverending song?
im closer to find neverneverland though..

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me. Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes,
That call me on and on across the universe,
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they
Tumble blindly as they make their way
Across the universe Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Sounds of laughter shades of earth are ringing
Through my open ears inciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns, it calls me on and on
Across the universe
Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Jai guru de va, jai guru de va



im leaving one realm for another. neverneverland.

but ill just leave another door open for you. just in case. no,no,no don't lie..

FM channel : recruit kiky

top 10..

boredom is beginning to sink into me. im so bored even money cant buy me out of this situation. i thought not working ill be able to do something fun. well i guess im wrong.
ive been eating breakfast for 3 days in a row. in my sleep. way fun..

anyway last sunday was my officially last day working at the wet theme park. altho ill be working just one more day on teachers day just to kill d fun. i think.

ask me out somebody?! you? yes you!

after working in the guest services department, ive realised how irritating humans can be. yeap including me. im an irritated irritant right now. get close and ill be irritating your irritate.
so i did a list of the top 10 most irritating as a wet theme park guest services staff.

the top 10 most irritating working at the wet theme park

10. Guests who keep coming to the wrong refund booth even when directed. After much wastage of our saliva, they keep comin back to ask again. i said "walk straight,turn left and you'll see a top up booth." and they just walked straight and end up at sakura buffet restaurant. yar refund it there fool.

9. Guests who do not understand the meaning of Park Closed. even when the rides are all closed, they just loved that place do they. we, staff, hate it and want to go home. close at 7! not 8! sleep in the toilet if u want, fool.

8. Constantly telling guests to go through the right Exit turnstile. Even when the Exit sign is visible even by an ant. the sign is really that visible. all you have to do i to look 20 degrees up. that isnt much of a chore aint it? fool.

7. Questions such as "if i go out, can i come in back?" even when there's a sign "Re-Entry". and there's an even bigger sign saying "Do not forget to get your Re-Entry stamp". Fools.

6. "If i'm not playing do i need to pay?" -.-" sure, i'll marry your daughter, but don't worry i wont be having any child with her. can i not pay? sure, ill just walk into the cinema for free cos i wont be watching the movie. sure ill just walk into every place and say i wont be doing anything can i just come in for free..

5. "If i come in , can i play all?" Yes, which is why we stated unlimited access to all rides.

4. Why is the locker only one time usage? because it isn't yours. need i say the F word again. sure. fool.

3. "Why not you change the picture of the pamplet to a beautiful girl? This is a picture of a fat ass!". i hate to admit but i've to agree with the guest this time round. with a beer belly and some unsightly hairs, cant they get any beautiful bikini girl as the front cover. don't believe me? just take a pampjlet at the entrance.

2. How much is the maximum top up? $500. and their eyes will be beaming with shock. love their reaction. if only i could take a picture of it.


but my favourite irritating question of all is.......jeng jeng jeng...


1. When will the lightning/rain stop? arggggghhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i swear each time i wanted to pick up the phone infront of the guest. and call God to ask. "so God, when would you like to stop this lightning and rain?" infinite foolness. extreme foolity. do i look like God to you?


FM channel: shittsy kiky

lotsa lotsa ideas. and nothing to write.

the title says all. ive been having alot of ideas to blog about. ALOT.
too many. tt if i dont start writing it down once i think of it,itll all go down the drain.
or maybe i just chose not to write it here. haiyah.

down the drain. hmm sounds familiar..

anyway to you #1,
be strong.
insyaallah ull find ur path.
pray hard.
have faith.

oh reality hurts.

and to you #2,
may d light be there in times of need.
and itll light up ur darkness.

gracias para adorarme to #1 and #2.

mueve en una opcion?

FM channel: huh? whose radio is this anyway?

so we...

So we..
walk to the left
as we walk to the right
as we walk as we walk as we walk all night.
on the heels and the toes
and the halfway turn.
on the heels and the toes
and a new friend found?...

so i walked. and i walked. all the way back home.
alone.
tampines to bedok north. cool eii.
well i had motorists,buses and cars accompanying me all along.
kinda perspiring.
only realized till i got home.
walked until perspire.
i should stop before i get thinner.
and i am already one. haiz.
perspire all over. body. hands. face. eyes.
wet wet wet ! just like the term foreigners call wild wild wet.

but wasnt tired. maybe just a tingling painful feeling on my calfs. haha.
adrenaline rush they say.
i say adrenaline crush.

Menanti Sebuah Jawapan - Padi, Soundtrack of Violet Ungu

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
Seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku tak terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu

Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yg terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

a lovely song.
well..
have i got the answer?
y 57.1 .drocer dlrow lanosrep .emit kcolc .tsilanif gnisol .ecalp tsal

Cuz kiky doesn't know,
kiky doesn't know,
kiky doesn't know,
kiky doesn't know.
So don't tell kiky.
kiky doesn't knoooooow....
DON'T TELL KIKY!

hehe. crazy fellow..

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

given.

What if there was no lie
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason, or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
What if I got it wrong
And no poet or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong

FM channel: kiky,shittsy,dreamy. sorry,ur not included laffy.

last days civilianhood

about 1 month left to civilianhood.
n im finally off to paradise island.
where most things are free,
except your body.
and mind.

speaking of free.
why do ppl trade time for money.
why do dey do tt when dey say dey're not after the world.
n dey criticise d ppl who are after bigger things.
when dey shud look upon themselves.
applies to all sort of life.
look upon thyself before thee look upon others.
why eh.
some ppl trade it for other things.
like for time? time for time. wth.
ill trade money for time if i cud,
n can someone trade time for me den.

just..
one...
more...
month....
isit too much to ask?

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me !


aaaa...... aaaaaaaaaa... aaaaaaaaaa....... aaaaaaaa...... arghh!!!!!!!

FM channel: untitled.

kungfu - war - hatred = music!

too much hatred in this blog lately. really. too much. this just wont do.

kiky this is too much! its just not u!
wasnt me! its shittsy! whoever u are!

and they said i don talk and sound real me like im cyber me. don't i? its me you know.
if i sound me, there's nothing to read.
why read me. when they can read me.

im beginning to hate watching the news. yes i do watch it.
im beginning to hate reading the newspaper. yes i read it.
im beginning to hate everything tt is so negative. everything bad! not that im not one of them. well im improving. improving in trying to improve.*whistles*
every page i turn. every news i watch. war. hatred. negativity. evil! damn satan.
can the world ever be in peace. probably another chapter after this world.

kamehameha (good) vs kamehameha (evil)

battle between good and bad. positivity and negativity.
it'll never end do they..?


the world just need to stop and breathe for a minute!
breathe with me !
inhale.exhale.inhale.exhale.inhale.exhale.inhale.oh just do it.

maybe the world needs some music.

Everybody was kung-fu fighting ~
Those cats were fast as lightning ~
In fact it was a little bit frightning ~
But they fought with expert timing ~


And some dance.

FM channel: kung fu kiky! haiyak!

Y is after Z.

after reading back my last entry, i realised noone understands except me i gez. haha. wat crap..

anyway to sum up, im angry at d letter Y for being before Z. from now on d alphabet for me goes like dis...

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXZY..

this way im way ahead of u. hah!
by now u must be thinking im stupid or wateva..


well..
...



just feeling....


angry ! effed up! wargh !!


and kamehameha you to hell!!




FM channel: super saiyan shittsy

fuck! its Y!

my days been busy. had a lot to do. something's been bugging me lately. irritating me quite alot. making me mad.
its the zombys. or the Y-idiots.
fuck the zombys! kill the Y-idiots!

who are these stupid brainless fucking idiotical zombys?
they were people. until they got hibernated and infected or as i like to put it, crapped and fucked.
and became...ZOMBY IDIOTS! the Generation Y idiots!

they walk among us. only more genetically defected and with skin decay all over their body. with a hinge of pungent smell. you wont miss them. and they wear green !
ull spot them giving away free berets. never take free berets from them. ull get infected too if you do.
YOU'VE BEEN WARNED.

encountered some of the Y-people. tried to gave me free berets. until i declined. and they started to attack me. and they tried to take away my cherific life.
i tried to avoid every blow. but they finally made a long scar on my chest.
was pissed off. it tore my Respect t-shirt! damn i love tt t shirt !

and something happened. no i didnt turn into a Super Saiyan. neither did i discovered Kryptonite powers. nor fell into a Bat cave.

Something clicked with me. And it clicked. And clicked. And clicked. And clicked. And then reloaded. i was holding on to a Magnum. where the hell did it come from, i dont know.

been clicking and reloading ever since.

Head shot. Head shot. Head shot. and they all finally died.
i think it sparked other Y-idiots to come and feel the wrath of my Magnum.
feel free to come you volunteery Y-idiots!

die Y idiots. hope you die and burn in hell. and die and burn in hell over and over again.

Click. Reload. Die Maggots. Y.

R21: Violence.

FM channel: shittsy. click. click. click. reload.
when a tragika* happens, the innocent gets crushed in the middle.

woah! overnight poet!

i was bloghopping..when suddenly i came across someone's blog.. and i was reading her bloggy.. just skimming through when suddenly i read something familiar.. here goes..


Yesterdae.the past,
Today. the present,
tomorrow the future,
Everybody hav past,
Dun regret about the pasts.
its there.work on it.improve it.for tomorrow,
tomorrow where the future happens.
work it.bulid it.dream it.
But dun forget about today,the present,the most important.
coz witout today,thre's no tomorrow.
~love you,true,always,yesterday,today,tomorrow~
dated:26.06.05


when something struck me.. its from my blog ! my creation !
see my blog dated 24.05.05 !!
wow. cant believe i saw it from a stranger's blog. haha.
kinda cool.
how can something i wrote out of ermm emo? haha can appear else where.
thank you stranger for using it.
kinda make me feel like a poet. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
to be or not to be (a poet) ~ that is the question..? ~
oh crap!

FM channel : DREAMY ~

kazaam!

i never had anything to do when i work on night shifts. doing cashier work,all i only had to do is to top up every idiot's funkey cards. the wet theme park is closed by 7. so that's the only job i had. but that's not the point..

i was reading my book and listening to the radio when suddenly i noticed something on my computer's taskbar. there is usually only the cashier program and to have something else is something weird. i clicked it....

ngi yang in son mah te aji semar ngi sing!

an artwork done using Paint. simply art.


FM channel: laffy !!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

:: HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY ::

~ cheri enna ~

have a prosperous 20 AB (After Birth) year.

be blessed with good health.

stay really happy. always. really.

always bring me around in your mickey mouse.

*smooch*

really.

FM channel: kiky querido

a big special thank you to ..

A very big thanks to 12 wonderful people. May Allah bless you. Amin.
zah
shikin
aishah
rabz
azmi
syahid
siddique
nor mamat
julie
asy
rozi
ida

for the super duper lovely blue jack purcell shoe.

big thanks to zah
for the lovely big "card". so sweet of u to make it n laminate it.
n for d lovely sajak.
n the lovely coochie cake.

gonna share with all.here's what zah wrote..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
To one of the wonderful heads i ever had...

Zaman berzaman kini berlalu,
Alangkah bahagia telah bertemu;
Kawan yang gila lagi tak malu,
Ikhlas kukatakan aku tak jemu.

Thank you for all your guidance and patience...

Fromt the ever cheerful gal,
Zahillah'05

to dear enna,
thanks for d wonderful cap tt ive been eyeing.
and the coolest shades ive been wanting to get.
kinda shock seeing you at topman.
but was able to creep out of d shop with kin.
hope u like the mickey mouse i got for u.
n d 2 butt-naked old couple. heh.

so touching. best belated birthday ever.
never had so much prezzies. *sobs*

thanks to 12 wonderful frens.
and 1 lovely girl.

ill share the pics of all the prezzies when i got the pic from enna.
pictures noone saw cos we took it at bedok when all have gone home.
stay tune !

FM channel: kiky

shit do happens. its not just in the toilets.

REVENGE OF THE SITH SHIT

just some shit feelings.
some things tt i feel has been happening to me.
shit things.



maybe this shit too.



ever felt like a bomb was thrown to you? even when u tried running away or don't want it?
i did.
shit happens.




that's it.
basically shit.

FM channel: shittsy

priceless moment

I am going to share a priceless moment with everyone. Not even Mastercard can pay for it. Not even VISA. Or Diners Club. Even American Express. And would NETS come close to pay for it. No. Priceless. Not for all the money in the world can give.
Here goes...
Priceless. Magic.

Date: 29/06/2005
Location: Civic Clinic
What: Enna just had an eye operation

SAY CHEESE! OUCH!

* This photo was taken after undergoing the most disgusting and gruelling event. I had to watch the entire process of the doctor digging into her eyes. Thanks for that priceless moment.

FM Channel: kiky

hmm..not so true

Get to know yourself better

1 Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

2 The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

3 Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

4 The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

5 Your views on education:Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

6 The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

7 How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

8 What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

9 Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

I did the test found on amin's blog. n im not so sure if its true about me. especially no. 4. haha do i flirt?! do i seduce?! ish ish ish. dono la eh. need ur opinion on it. is it true about me? cos im not so sure about it. help! tag on my blog! on ur mark! get set ! tag!!!!

FM channel: dreamy

barf-barf-barf day.. a soldier story.

didnt feel anything today. except for d fact i am no longer a "teen" and now gonna have a big fat number 2 infront of everything. 20. twenty. dua puloh. how come i dont feel any drastic or cool what-so-ever transactions from being a "____teen" to being a "twenty".

had to work full shift today. again. and again. and again. all due to shortage of manpower. how many full shifts am i gonna do again.. damn tired. lucky no shortage of money while doing ticketig. if not, also cant pay. my money balance is officially zero. zilch. none. nil. sifar. kosong. O. anybody care to spare a penny? thinking of fasting. cos no money for lunch already. haha. wth..

to those who took d trouble and spared their precious time to sms me to wish me. thanks so much. appreciate it. to those that didnt. well. eat ur own shorts. haha. k dont. dont want u to die eating tt. maybe u cud eat d one inside your shorts.

haiz. no money. no money to even buy myself a small itsy bitsy cake. so hello 20. boohoo 20. no celebrations for u 20. too bad. aww..

want to share a story i learnt during the weekend. here goes..

the soldier, the lady and WW2.

Once upon a time during World War 2, there was an American soldier being posted to fight the war in Europe. Before he went there, he had loaned out a book of poetry from the library. there was no PSP or Nokia handphones back then. So a poetry book was the best form of entertainment. i suppose.

so whilst fighting the war, he was also able to read the poetry book during his free time. the book was written by an American lady. from there, he became deeply in love with her poetry. in the book was also the address of the author. thus he wrote a letter of appraisal to her.

then ever since the first letter, they became pen pals. always writing to each other even during the peak period of the war. this was the MSN messenger or mIRC back then.

and they fell in love with each other even though they never seen each other before. the soldier ever asked her once if she could send him a picture of her. but the lady only replied, "if our love is true, my picture is irrelavant." and he agreed on tt.

soon after the war, they finally agreed to meet each other. the lady decided that they were to meet in a Boston train station. and if their love is really2 true. they would finally meet each other. but then the soldier was dumb enough not to ask what time they were to meet. all he was able to know was that he was to carry the poetry book with him. and that to recognise the lady, she would be carrying a rose. so he came pretty early that day. right when the clock struck midnight he was there already. waiting.

noon came. it was the busy period. everyone was rushing here and there. the soldier still waiting with anticipation. then suddenly he saw one of the most beautiful things he ever saw. a lady in a green dress was walking towards him. he perspired. "this could be my most lucky day ever. even better than surviving thewar!", he thought. he gripped his book tight. then suddenly he noticed something unusual. the greend dress lady wasnt holding any rose ! and at that moment he saw someone far behind her standing alone. holding a rose. she was one of the most unsightful things he ever saw! his heart broke. he saw a lady exactly the same size as the one in Shallow Hal. weighing at a weight even cows are lighter.

the next moment the green dress pretty lady walked past him and asked "gg my way?" sexily. he was torn. between pretty pretty girl or ugly girl with rose. he knew that he bonded and fell in love with her during the letter sessions. but little did he expect to see something like that!

he finally made a decision. sticking to his principles and morals, he took a deep breath and walked towards the "fugly" lady with rose. and as he stood infront of her he asked,"hi. im so-and-so-i-forgot-the-name."

the lady replied,"who are you? cos i have no idea what's going on. that lady in the green dress told me to hold this rose and wait here."

and as the soldier looked behind to find the green dress lady, he saw her, smiling and chuckling. he proved his worthy love for her.

- what you see may not be what you would expect it to be. but if you try and take a look at it closer, it could turn out to be something greater than you can ever expect. - mike wilson *


*after some consideration from cheri's comments, ive decided to correct my mistakes

FM Channel: dreamy

finally

FINALLY !!!!

NO MORE !!!!!!!!!!!!! ~

NO MORE !!!!!!!!!!! ~

As of TODAY, i am officially out of the 1-year driving probation!
woohoo !
congrats to nadi peeps for getting the 5-year contract with dramatec.
Happy Birthday to all June Babies.
especially to me,me and me. not yet. but gonna be soon !*

*hint hint. winks.

501.

I'll give you the space and you'll give me mine.
That's how we do.
Levi's 501 The Original.

/
sad but true.
happy but false.
what is it that needs to be done?
space.
infinite space.
i think i'll hitchhike to the Milky Way.
see you.
/

They can take the punishment. Can you?
Levi's 501 Scarred Jeans.

this entry is all shitty

watched madagaskar mr & mrs smith already yeay! no money already! i think so.

been working recently too. just started so couldnt update much. wont say much about work but only wanna say to the butt-kissing, power-worshipping ppl tt wat-the-hell do wateva u want, ur gonna be seeing me in 3 more months anyway. so fark the bossy and butt-kissing attitude. im here to work and get paid. period. but reali. i like the way it is done. so much fun working. u ppl just light up the drama. u guys rock! and ill give a fark u for that!

~_~

do we have to re-write some stuff that have been said?

do we have to re-write the history?

was it all lies?

or was it the truth?

was it an error?

or was it an opportunity?

were we too early or too late?

was i too early or too late?

so i was too late?

or i was too early?

tell me. or ull never know.

don't wait too long. before i go.

i'll be waiting. again.

like i've always been.

~_~

do not give a watever-word care over what has been written.

you have been warned.

all's shitty.

kerepek pedas!!

i wonder how it happened. but i watched Madagaskar on wednesday wit cheri. its weird when ur money runs so damn low but u can stil save for ur beloved one. haiz. beloved. loved. love. re-loved. returned love?*

move it move it ! Madagaskar is a cool movie.

anyway funny thing happen yesterday. food seem to hate us.
(before gym) drank mixed soya bean with chin chau and keropok ikan. chin chau tasted abit bland. keropok ikan had no taste. blardy tasteless. waste my $1.

(after gym) let it be known that TP business school's vending machine likes to eat up 50 sen coins. tried to buy kerepek pedas. was so hungry. left with only 50 sen. and whilst anticipating it to drop, it didnt. it got stuck. blardy hell. kempunan siot! meleleh air liur tgk tu benda tak jatuh². in the end 2 hobbits tried to bang the vending machine to who-knows make it drop. anyway can u guys imagine sapinah trying to shake the big vending machine all by herself? she did. but oh well it didnt work. the vending machine refused to budge either. haha! funny like hell. small ant tried to move a big elephant. anyway..damn vending machine. ate my 50 sens!! blardy vending machine even hurt my arm!!**

i love psychotic penguins!***

* hoo?
** tried to knock it down. in the end i was knocked down..
*** still feeling kempunan of that kerepek pedas

myth.

myth
· n.
1 a traditional story concerning the early history of a people or explaining a natural or social phenomenon, and typically involving supernatural beings or events.
2 a widely held but false belief. Ø a fictitious person or thing. Ø an exaggerated or idealized conception of a person or thing.
– DERIVATIVES mythic adj. mythical adj. mythically adv.
– ORIGIN C19 (earlier (C17) as mythic): from mod. L. mythus, via late L. from Gk muthos.

myths as we know are just stories. stories that we hoped would happen. we hoped there would be unicorns. we hoped there would be a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. we hoped that there would be flying and talking dragons like the sean connery voice-alike dragon in Dragonheart. we hoped there would be care bears. spiderman. the x-men. smurfs. characters from enid blyton's books. and so on. but as we know they're all myths. fictional characters. fictional stories.

but myths won't be myths without hoping. we hope for world peace. we hope for bush not to wear an iPod inside his suit. we hope for everything to go smoothly. we hope for perfection. we hope for money to rain form the sky. we hope for so many things. but did they ever go as we want them to be or as we hoped ? these are myths. it will continue to be myths.

point is, hope is just a mythical word.

hope
· n.
1 a feeling of expectation and desire. Ø a person or thing that gives cause for hope. Ø grounds for hoping.
2 archaic a feeling of trust.
3 a mythical word.
· v. expect and desire. Ø intend if possible to do something.
– PHRASES hope against hope cling to a mere possibility. not a (or some) hope informal no chance at all.
– DERIVATIVES hoper n.
– ORIGIN OE hopa (n.), hopian (v.), of Gmc origin.

Bush with an iPod. A sign of hope?

bore. bored. boredom. boredified. borey. boreful. borefully. im so bored.

d title says it all. im so freaking bored. nothing to do. work starts in 1 more week. stupid me didnt clarify what i meant by "i can start probably next wk". n she tot it was 1 more week. i want to start today for goodness! nevermind. can go do something for for 1 more week before work starts. hmm "something". what can i do with something...?*

cash running lower n lower. unsurprisingly. although im not sure how low it can run either. craving so many things. argh. food. shoes. clothes. mp3 player**. new computer. food. hopefully i can save more with my pay this time round. hopefully.***

hmm thinking what i should do now. pondering my choices..
1. bathe. eat. gym.
2. bathe. eat. sleep.
3. bathe. eat. tv.
4. bathe. eat. xbox.
5. bathe. eat.

one thing's for sure. all of the choices have me do an important thing. what time is it anyway...****

* nothing! argh!!
** my birthday's on the 23 june. but that's not the point. felt like saying it.
*** what can hope do.. hah!
**** something sure smells fishy around here.. what can it be uh?

woke up dear have you? nearly whole day yesterday u did sleep. hoo.

voices in the head

a crazy weekend.
all ups and downs. like the roller coaster i took on saturday.
up and downs. like the path i rode on my bike on monday.
out of sorts. sorted out.
its funny. i wasn't thinking of anything. but my head hurts. funny. haha.

too many voices in my head.
cant even recognise them. who r u all?
damn those voices.
stop talking. all of you. go away.

my fault. ur fault. our fault. nobody's fault.
probably. probably not.
im not here. ur not here. but we're here. funny. haha.

yesterday. the past.
today. the present.
tomorrow. thr future.
everybody has pasts.
don regret about the pasts.
it's there. work on it. improve it. for tomorrow.
tomorrow where the future happens.
work it. build it. dream it.
but don forget about today. the present. the most important.
cos without today, there's no tomorrow.

love you. true. always. yesterday. today. tomorrow.


boxcar racers - tiny voices
i've been all pinched up since saturday
i've run my self dry of excellence
16 long years in-hale the bullshit in
whatever i said on saturday
whatever i did i'll do it all again
19 marks up walls
each year one short fall of

tiny voices, make things harder
everybody will be let down
everybody will be let down

what is this for ex-parking lot
the dreamers go buy they never stop
20 plus 5 in let the youth cave in

tiny voices, make things harder
everybody will be let down
everybody will be let down

tiny voices make things harder
tiny voices make things harder
everybody will be let down
everybody will be let down
everybody will be let down
everybody will be let down

sorry just dont solve it all

Feeling a bit emo right now. and the funny thing is i am really not quite sure why and for god-knows-what reason. probably this dinodi-cinta tragika have been traumatising me lately.*
anyway since my dear cheri is sleeping right now, i could type out abit on what i was thinking a couple of seconds ago... hee..**

So i was thinking of all those small fights, big quarrels, cool arguments, chilli hot differences, those punches u gave me, those kisses and pecks i gave u back*** that we had in our already 1 yr plus long being together****. well most of them were caused by me of course. i started it. and i admit it. heh~. *****

Anyway for all those disagreements that we had one party ended up saying the problem-solver word "sorry". As a kid, that magic word sure comes in handy for mom n dad.... anyway back to the point.. thinking back, after saying it, we would end up in the same situation again probably the next night. it's true that all relationships have ups and downs. and i realised i kinda cherished those downs that we had. it felt like it made us,or atleast one party, stronger.

i think i've said sorry more times than the number of hair on gandhi's head. yes i really meant the sorries that i said but maybe its not enough. well for me. maybe it's time i atleast do something extraordinary for her. probably pick her up and fly her to the top of eiffel tower? or capture that unicorn for her to keep as a pet? or give her a trip around the world on a yacht? or buy her those designer shoes she's been craving about? or how about dinner by the sea in the white sands of tenerife? or maybe just do something simple and sweet for her.......

Well that's for me to figure out... ******

* Sesingkat waktu itu, aku masih... dammit there goes the song in my head again.. argh!
** Beware to all, this could get pretty jiwang. =p
*** hey it's true! i don hit her back ! weee~
**** hoorah !
***** not sure what's this asterisk is for but i like the 5 stars
****** yeah right...

puppy cig. puppy respect. can puppy get lost

puppy*!!! i shud never have given too much puppy respect to u. no puppy point i gave my respect to u. what did u puppy gave me? puppy-hole! i gave tt puppy small respect to u, n wat u gave me?! u puppy put ur bloody puppy smelly feet on my head!! take tt puppy cig n shove it up ur mother puppy hole !!!!!! u even puppy dare to do tt puppy shit to my face!! what the puppy?! what i'm invisible or what !!??!! i puppy shit gave u my respect n wat did u puppy did to it !! get ur mother puppy self away before ill puppy shove a puppy stick up ur puppy puppy-hole!!! u can puppy get lost. u just lost my puppy respect, dude.

*Due to ratings advisory, all explicit words have been changed to the word - puppy.

another chapter begins..

ok life in temasek poly is nearly over now. ive now officially finished with my diploma. ive now officially done with involvements in school. i tink

pentas is over! and i tot we all put up a good show. applaud~
nadi sentosa outing was great! too bad there were no pics to share.. best moment: sazly being warned by the lifeguard. haha!

announcements:
> graduated from TP with dip. in Telecommunications
> zah is now d new head of nadi! hahaha. all d best to u guys
> i'm gg for a holiday to tekong on 10th september. yeah! finally an overseas holiday! hmpf..

to nadi peeps. have an exciting days ahead! nice working with all of ya!