over Mount Shadow,a Dark shadow glooms
westward reaching,
over the shadows, wings of darkness blooms,
southward moving.
breaking every hill on sight,
darkening every living with light.
but what see did they? fixed were they ears,
for they feel Its presence with their tears.
as the mountains darkens,
the Dead awakens..

the Dark Lord Towers has risen
from beneath the Shadows it arise
the Lord's black sword is driven
from the sheath beneath all Wise

Get out,you old Wight! Vanish in the moonlight!
Shrivel like the shivering mist,like the winds go wailing,
Out into the barren lands far beyond the mountains!
Come never here again! Leave your barrow empty!
Lost and forgotten be,darker than the darkness,
Where gates stand forever shut,till the world is mended
but will it be?

cold be hand and heart and bone,
and cold be sleep under stone
never more to wake on stony bed,
never,till the Sun fails and the Moon is dead
In the black wind the stars shall die,
and still on gold here let them lie,
till the dark lords lift their hands,
over the dead sea and conquered lands.

will it be mended?
will the Light come forth...
may it be.

FM channel: the dark cold night.......

with Anduril as i valiantly ride. noro lim, noro lim, Asfaloth!
the cold hard lands they bites our hands,
they gnaws our feet.
The rocks and stones are like old bones,
all bare of meat.
But stream and pool is wet and cool:
so nice our feet. and now i wish...
alive without breath

to be alive without breath, as cold as death.
for what purpose now do i seek?
as i head for the Sea. to the Sea! the Sea!
is that all i can see?
long are the waves on the Last Shores falling,
Sweet is your voice in the Long Isle calling..
but no man will discover,
that my leaves are falling...
but what is of me becoming?
this cannot be of me.

Cos' i love the sound of you...

FM channel: pneumatic sounds

na na na na hey hey good bye

oh 2005 is coming to an end. thank god.lets hope next year's gonna be better.
alfateha to all those Muslims tt died from Mother Nature's force. katrina,tsunami etc..
and to those tt died from suicide bombs.

so d new year's coming n im stillliving alhamdulillah. lets hope ill live to see d next next year too. and the next next next year. and d next next next n next year. and the...oh u get my point.
so ive taken every second, every minute,every hour,every day,every month, every year..
step by step eii.. starting to cherish every moment eii.. guilty of taking everything for granted eii..
here comes d new year eii.


took dis pic using a hp camera
even Nature agrees. leave those dark clouds behind.. have a fresh start.
have a mentos fresh mint.

Step by step. start anew. baby steps baby steps..
One small step on tiles, One GIANT step for me.


Tough Times Don't Last. Tough Men Do.
and we did.

a rollercoaster year. expressionally. not a year to remember of course. haha
funny. but 2006 better be a good year. a blardy good year perhaps.

Destiny is calling me. Open up my eager eyes cos I'm Mr. Brightside

oh just sing and dance.
your mind and hearts away.
numa numa yeh. numa numa numa yeh.

FM channel: little devil. kiky little. kikinho. maiyahi maiyahu maiyaho maiyahaha.

oh ive pop-ed. tts news.
im on block leave now. dont really have plans on how to maximise your 10 days block leave.
waiting for my new posting.
command school? dont bother. im on 3 months excuse from running marching and jumping...
sigh.
downgrading is a probability.
service side prolly awaits me.
sigh.
we'll see",they said.

I missed the opportunity
to get you babe to stay with me.
Never thought, I'd regret the excuses that I've made
like a song,it will fade

yes im afraid. so?
now's maybe not a good time.
but then again, when is?
courage. please come to me..

If there's music in the night,
And it's really, really right,
It's the only thing I need.
it intoxicates your mind
All your troubles left behind
So come on and take my lead.
it's not just me who feels it
music plays a mind trick
watch me forget about missing you

oh just break my leg will you.
it'll be easier that way.
more running and jumping could result in fracture",she said.
ah heck.

so i put my feelings out to dry
love, one day again,
i'll have to try.
falling out, making up
it seems such a silly game
why do i never gain?

waiting.
is it you? no it's me..
for the right time?
there is no such thing.

FM channel: saving private..who?

Field camp is over~
beraya with snakes are over
today i can beraya~

n by monday ill be inside tekong again..
for my sitest...

with mosquito bites on my forehead tt look like pimples,
and on my hands
bruises and cuts every where
aches everywhere..
i can now dare to say im...

recruit peter pan!


Tak Bisakah - Peter Pan (OST Alexandria)

hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu
selalu selalu dalam hatiku
ku melangkah sejauh apapun itu
selalu engkau di dalam hatiku

ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
berharap temukan sisa hatimu
mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

reff: tak bisakah kau menungguku
hingga nanti tetap menunggu
tak bisakah kau menuntunku
menemani jalan hidupku

ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
berharap temukan sisa hatimu
mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

dara kau menjadi hidupku
kemana kau tahu isi hati
kutunggu sejenak aku di situ
jalanku jalan menemukanmu

repeat reff

FM channel: the ground is my bed, the sky is my shelter, the rifle is my bolster

Selamat Hari Raya Idl Fitri

A Selamat Hari Raya Idl Fitri to all Muslims in Singapore.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

to anyone who know me or is reading this;
ie: you,yes you reading this..dont look ard.its YOU,

ku susun sepuluh jari ku memohon maaf zahir dan batin atas segala salah silap ku selama ini tidak kira tak sengaja atau disengajakan. mohon maaf. hamba cuma insan yg penuh dgn kesilapan.
selamat menyambut idl fitri.

dis yr is somewhat special yet unspecial hari raya for me..
special cos even after gg thru PT,route marches,range,guard duty....COMPLETELY FULL PUASA! woo! shthank u..shtank u....
maybe no big deal for some of u. but hey its cobaan when ppl ard u start drinking when u most need it...
unspecial cos..ill be celebrating most of d days in green baju kurung.

sigh
life of a servant...

finally.im gonna visit some friends dis weekends in d botanical gardens of tekong.
wild boars,snakes,centipedes,lizards...u guys better prepare ur kueh tarts. muahaha.


Edited from Sepasang Kurung Biru;

di hari yg berbahgia ini
hatiku kosong dan sepi sekali
betapa manis kengani lalu
ku sambut raya bersama dgn mu,oh...(hutan hutan..)

tetamu dtg tetamu pergi
namun tak tiba org ku nanti
hanya sepasang kurung hijau
menjadi teman membuat rindu...

FM channel: servant of all trades. happy hari raya.

So Puasa starts next week on wednesday.
Selamat menyambut Ramadhan to all.
Coincidentally first day puasa ive a 4km march.
how cool. mental toughness gonna be stretched to d max.
cos its d first day!
lets pray i can make it.
cos paying back puasa is dreader den puasa during Ramadhan itself.
Perseverence!

Im so happy Ramadhan has come.finally.
Love Ramadhan.
Pure White Month.

oh thanks zah for d comel comment on my botak head.
cute word.
comel.
paling comel.

Just wanna share a song...
current fav...

Peter Pan - Kupu-Kupu Malam

Ada yang benci dirinya
Ada yang butuh dirinya
Ada yang perlu tuk mencintanya
Ada pula yang kejam menyiksa dirinya

Ini hidup wanita si kupu-kupu malam
Bekerja bertaruh seluruh jiwa raga
Bibir senyum kata harus merayu memanja
Kepada setiap mereka yang datang

Dosakah yang dia kerjakan
Sucikah mereka yang datang
Kadang dia tersenyum dalam tangis
Kadang dia menangis di dalam senyuman

Oo apa yang terjadi terjadilah
Yang dia tahu Tuhan penyayang umatNya
Oo apa yang terjadi terjadilah
Yang dia tahu hanyalah menyambung nyawa

currently happy ! i dono why im happy for ! but i am! yeah !
this happens when u do nothing on book out day.
oh well. booking in back...
neverneverland.

FM channel: peter pan. recruit peter pan.

ended song, new song, endless song?

1130 hours! this recruit of yours will be reporting for duty at neverneverland.
and ill be training up to be peter pan!
Recruit Peter Pan!
all dress up in green ! with a green cap! green socks! green boots! green clothes!
dis better be fun!
and ill have tinkerbelle as a buddy!
ill be learning to fly ~

found out an interesting fact today after listening to my countless mp3s so that i wont miss them.
each song have an ending.
weird. but i want a song with no ending.
cos each time i listen a love song, a happy song, a sad song, a dying song, a marriage song n even songs by elmo..it all have endings. and endings are heartbreaking.

i hate endings. endings break people's hearts.
not that my own life will have an ending too. but that's another story..

your song has ended.
can i ever find my neverending song?
im closer to find neverneverland though..

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me. Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes,
That call me on and on across the universe,
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they
Tumble blindly as they make their way
Across the universe Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Sounds of laughter shades of earth are ringing
Through my open ears inciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns, it calls me on and on
Across the universe
Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Jai guru de va, jai guru de va



im leaving one realm for another. neverneverland.

but ill just leave another door open for you. just in case. no,no,no don't lie..

FM channel : recruit kiky

top 10..

boredom is beginning to sink into me. im so bored even money cant buy me out of this situation. i thought not working ill be able to do something fun. well i guess im wrong.
ive been eating breakfast for 3 days in a row. in my sleep. way fun..

anyway last sunday was my officially last day working at the wet theme park. altho ill be working just one more day on teachers day just to kill d fun. i think.

ask me out somebody?! you? yes you!

after working in the guest services department, ive realised how irritating humans can be. yeap including me. im an irritated irritant right now. get close and ill be irritating your irritate.
so i did a list of the top 10 most irritating as a wet theme park guest services staff.

the top 10 most irritating working at the wet theme park

10. Guests who keep coming to the wrong refund booth even when directed. After much wastage of our saliva, they keep comin back to ask again. i said "walk straight,turn left and you'll see a top up booth." and they just walked straight and end up at sakura buffet restaurant. yar refund it there fool.

9. Guests who do not understand the meaning of Park Closed. even when the rides are all closed, they just loved that place do they. we, staff, hate it and want to go home. close at 7! not 8! sleep in the toilet if u want, fool.

8. Constantly telling guests to go through the right Exit turnstile. Even when the Exit sign is visible even by an ant. the sign is really that visible. all you have to do i to look 20 degrees up. that isnt much of a chore aint it? fool.

7. Questions such as "if i go out, can i come in back?" even when there's a sign "Re-Entry". and there's an even bigger sign saying "Do not forget to get your Re-Entry stamp". Fools.

6. "If i'm not playing do i need to pay?" -.-" sure, i'll marry your daughter, but don't worry i wont be having any child with her. can i not pay? sure, ill just walk into the cinema for free cos i wont be watching the movie. sure ill just walk into every place and say i wont be doing anything can i just come in for free..

5. "If i come in , can i play all?" Yes, which is why we stated unlimited access to all rides.

4. Why is the locker only one time usage? because it isn't yours. need i say the F word again. sure. fool.

3. "Why not you change the picture of the pamplet to a beautiful girl? This is a picture of a fat ass!". i hate to admit but i've to agree with the guest this time round. with a beer belly and some unsightly hairs, cant they get any beautiful bikini girl as the front cover. don't believe me? just take a pampjlet at the entrance.

2. How much is the maximum top up? $500. and their eyes will be beaming with shock. love their reaction. if only i could take a picture of it.


but my favourite irritating question of all is.......jeng jeng jeng...


1. When will the lightning/rain stop? arggggghhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i swear each time i wanted to pick up the phone infront of the guest. and call God to ask. "so God, when would you like to stop this lightning and rain?" infinite foolness. extreme foolity. do i look like God to you?


FM channel: shittsy kiky

lotsa lotsa ideas. and nothing to write.

the title says all. ive been having alot of ideas to blog about. ALOT.
too many. tt if i dont start writing it down once i think of it,itll all go down the drain.
or maybe i just chose not to write it here. haiyah.

down the drain. hmm sounds familiar..

anyway to you #1,
be strong.
insyaallah ull find ur path.
pray hard.
have faith.

oh reality hurts.

and to you #2,
may d light be there in times of need.
and itll light up ur darkness.

gracias para adorarme to #1 and #2.

mueve en una opcion?

FM channel: huh? whose radio is this anyway?

so we...

So we..
walk to the left
as we walk to the right
as we walk as we walk as we walk all night.
on the heels and the toes
and the halfway turn.
on the heels and the toes
and a new friend found?...

so i walked. and i walked. all the way back home.
alone.
tampines to bedok north. cool eii.
well i had motorists,buses and cars accompanying me all along.
kinda perspiring.
only realized till i got home.
walked until perspire.
i should stop before i get thinner.
and i am already one. haiz.
perspire all over. body. hands. face. eyes.
wet wet wet ! just like the term foreigners call wild wild wet.

but wasnt tired. maybe just a tingling painful feeling on my calfs. haha.
adrenaline rush they say.
i say adrenaline crush.

Menanti Sebuah Jawapan - Padi, Soundtrack of Violet Ungu

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
Seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku tak terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu

Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yg terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

a lovely song.
well..
have i got the answer?
y 57.1 .drocer dlrow lanosrep .emit kcolc .tsilanif gnisol .ecalp tsal

Cuz kiky doesn't know,
kiky doesn't know,
kiky doesn't know,
kiky doesn't know.
So don't tell kiky.
kiky doesn't knoooooow....
DON'T TELL KIKY!

hehe. crazy fellow..

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

given.

What if there was no lie
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason, or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
What if I got it wrong
And no poet or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong

FM channel: kiky,shittsy,dreamy. sorry,ur not included laffy.

last days civilianhood

about 1 month left to civilianhood.
n im finally off to paradise island.
where most things are free,
except your body.
and mind.

speaking of free.
why do ppl trade time for money.
why do dey do tt when dey say dey're not after the world.
n dey criticise d ppl who are after bigger things.
when dey shud look upon themselves.
applies to all sort of life.
look upon thyself before thee look upon others.
why eh.
some ppl trade it for other things.
like for time? time for time. wth.
ill trade money for time if i cud,
n can someone trade time for me den.

just..
one...
more...
month....
isit too much to ask?

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me !


aaaa...... aaaaaaaaaa... aaaaaaaaaa....... aaaaaaaa...... arghh!!!!!!!

FM channel: untitled.

kungfu - war - hatred = music!

too much hatred in this blog lately. really. too much. this just wont do.

kiky this is too much! its just not u!
wasnt me! its shittsy! whoever u are!

and they said i don talk and sound real me like im cyber me. don't i? its me you know.
if i sound me, there's nothing to read.
why read me. when they can read me.

im beginning to hate watching the news. yes i do watch it.
im beginning to hate reading the newspaper. yes i read it.
im beginning to hate everything tt is so negative. everything bad! not that im not one of them. well im improving. improving in trying to improve.*whistles*
every page i turn. every news i watch. war. hatred. negativity. evil! damn satan.
can the world ever be in peace. probably another chapter after this world.

kamehameha (good) vs kamehameha (evil)

battle between good and bad. positivity and negativity.
it'll never end do they..?


the world just need to stop and breathe for a minute!
breathe with me !
inhale.exhale.inhale.exhale.inhale.exhale.inhale.oh just do it.

maybe the world needs some music.

Everybody was kung-fu fighting ~
Those cats were fast as lightning ~
In fact it was a little bit frightning ~
But they fought with expert timing ~


And some dance.

FM channel: kung fu kiky! haiyak!

Y is after Z.

after reading back my last entry, i realised noone understands except me i gez. haha. wat crap..

anyway to sum up, im angry at d letter Y for being before Z. from now on d alphabet for me goes like dis...

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXZY..

this way im way ahead of u. hah!
by now u must be thinking im stupid or wateva..


well..
...



just feeling....


angry ! effed up! wargh !!


and kamehameha you to hell!!




FM channel: super saiyan shittsy

fuck! its Y!

my days been busy. had a lot to do. something's been bugging me lately. irritating me quite alot. making me mad.
its the zombys. or the Y-idiots.
fuck the zombys! kill the Y-idiots!

who are these stupid brainless fucking idiotical zombys?
they were people. until they got hibernated and infected or as i like to put it, crapped and fucked.
and became...ZOMBY IDIOTS! the Generation Y idiots!

they walk among us. only more genetically defected and with skin decay all over their body. with a hinge of pungent smell. you wont miss them. and they wear green !
ull spot them giving away free berets. never take free berets from them. ull get infected too if you do.
YOU'VE BEEN WARNED.

encountered some of the Y-people. tried to gave me free berets. until i declined. and they started to attack me. and they tried to take away my cherific life.
i tried to avoid every blow. but they finally made a long scar on my chest.
was pissed off. it tore my Respect t-shirt! damn i love tt t shirt !

and something happened. no i didnt turn into a Super Saiyan. neither did i discovered Kryptonite powers. nor fell into a Bat cave.

Something clicked with me. And it clicked. And clicked. And clicked. And clicked. And then reloaded. i was holding on to a Magnum. where the hell did it come from, i dont know.

been clicking and reloading ever since.

Head shot. Head shot. Head shot. and they all finally died.
i think it sparked other Y-idiots to come and feel the wrath of my Magnum.
feel free to come you volunteery Y-idiots!

die Y idiots. hope you die and burn in hell. and die and burn in hell over and over again.

Click. Reload. Die Maggots. Y.

R21: Violence.

FM channel: shittsy. click. click. click. reload.
when a tragika* happens, the innocent gets crushed in the middle.

woah! overnight poet!

i was bloghopping..when suddenly i came across someone's blog.. and i was reading her bloggy.. just skimming through when suddenly i read something familiar.. here goes..


Yesterdae.the past,
Today. the present,
tomorrow the future,
Everybody hav past,
Dun regret about the pasts.
its there.work on it.improve it.for tomorrow,
tomorrow where the future happens.
work it.bulid it.dream it.
But dun forget about today,the present,the most important.
coz witout today,thre's no tomorrow.
~love you,true,always,yesterday,today,tomorrow~
dated:26.06.05


when something struck me.. its from my blog ! my creation !
see my blog dated 24.05.05 !!
wow. cant believe i saw it from a stranger's blog. haha.
kinda cool.
how can something i wrote out of ermm emo? haha can appear else where.
thank you stranger for using it.
kinda make me feel like a poet. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
to be or not to be (a poet) ~ that is the question..? ~
oh crap!

FM channel : DREAMY ~

kazaam!

i never had anything to do when i work on night shifts. doing cashier work,all i only had to do is to top up every idiot's funkey cards. the wet theme park is closed by 7. so that's the only job i had. but that's not the point..

i was reading my book and listening to the radio when suddenly i noticed something on my computer's taskbar. there is usually only the cashier program and to have something else is something weird. i clicked it....

ngi yang in son mah te aji semar ngi sing!

an artwork done using Paint. simply art.


FM channel: laffy !!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

:: HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY ::

~ cheri enna ~

have a prosperous 20 AB (After Birth) year.

be blessed with good health.

stay really happy. always. really.

always bring me around in your mickey mouse.

*smooch*

really.

FM channel: kiky querido

a big special thank you to ..

A very big thanks to 12 wonderful people. May Allah bless you. Amin.
zah
shikin
aishah
rabz
azmi
syahid
siddique
nor mamat
julie
asy
rozi
ida

for the super duper lovely blue jack purcell shoe.

big thanks to zah
for the lovely big "card". so sweet of u to make it n laminate it.
n for d lovely sajak.
n the lovely coochie cake.

gonna share with all.here's what zah wrote..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
To one of the wonderful heads i ever had...

Zaman berzaman kini berlalu,
Alangkah bahagia telah bertemu;
Kawan yang gila lagi tak malu,
Ikhlas kukatakan aku tak jemu.

Thank you for all your guidance and patience...

Fromt the ever cheerful gal,
Zahillah'05

to dear enna,
thanks for d wonderful cap tt ive been eyeing.
and the coolest shades ive been wanting to get.
kinda shock seeing you at topman.
but was able to creep out of d shop with kin.
hope u like the mickey mouse i got for u.
n d 2 butt-naked old couple. heh.

so touching. best belated birthday ever.
never had so much prezzies. *sobs*

thanks to 12 wonderful frens.
and 1 lovely girl.

ill share the pics of all the prezzies when i got the pic from enna.
pictures noone saw cos we took it at bedok when all have gone home.
stay tune !

FM channel: kiky

shit do happens. its not just in the toilets.

REVENGE OF THE SITH SHIT

just some shit feelings.
some things tt i feel has been happening to me.
shit things.



maybe this shit too.



ever felt like a bomb was thrown to you? even when u tried running away or don't want it?
i did.
shit happens.




that's it.
basically shit.

FM channel: shittsy