i love this song. forever.

Super Furry Animals - Juxtapozed With You

It's easy when you know how
To get along without Biff! Bang! Pow!
And if I see that you're fed up,
I'll stop and give you a leg up.

Over priced unreal estate,
Surreal estate,
The highest price they've hit to date,
Creating new divides and tension.

You've got to tolerate,
All those people that you hate,
I'm not in love with you,
But I wont hold that against you,
You've got to tolerate,
Some of those people that you hate,
I'm not in love with you,
But I wont hold that against you.

This is a tale of 2 city/situations,
Mutual appreciation,
Away from narrow pre-conception,
Avoiding conflict hyper-tension,
Non-phobic word aerobic.
This was my domain,
Till someone stole my name.

You've got to tolerate ...etc.
Let's get juxtaposed, juxtaposed,Just suppose I juxtapose with you...

FM channel: Rings around the world

it's been a sad month.
nevertheless Allah loves them more.

Al-Fateha to:
-Abang Jai's wife; Saleha bte Saleh
-Mohamed Faizal bin Omar

Semoga Allah swt merahmati roh2 mereka.

FM channel: Al Fateha...

suddup lah..faaaark it

apparently after infinite weeks of being an annoying,self-indulging,cant-stop-talking geeky schizo schezel... i think its time to be back to my old,last-century,wartime history self.
the textbook,comicbook,storybook very quiet scared of everyone geeky self.

Best way to converse is not to talk at all.
why?
it avoids controversy.
it avoids putting urself in a spot.
it avoids being irritating and annoying.
best of all..
there's no reason to be oblivious about things.
AND,
there's not reason to be at all sorry.
both for something you do or something you dont.
cos silence stays in the backdrop.

just stay quiet and observe the beautiful things around you.
its time to hear d birds sing.
its time to feel the morning breeze.
its time to see the sun rise.
its time to not to talk.

on the contrary..

semangkin hari semangkin serasi
bagai pagi dgn sinar matahari
bagai malam dgn kerdipan bintang yg berseri

i wish ah!
faarkkk it lahhh..
baiiik!!

FM channel: schizo schezel

boiling point yet endorphins on a high

its fucking irritating tt some people think they are so good they cant accept criticism and move on and do something about it. and all they do is give fucking stupid reasons. fucking shit. yes humans make mistakes. but with this kind of continuing attitude, humans will make mistakes till the end of time. fucking hell shit bloody sia hamba koo ke nyeng kweng kuo!

strive for perfection lah kanna!
even if there is no such thing as perfection.. there's something as close to perfection and that's something to be proud of and not some cock up thingy!

if this continues that's the end of everything. so much for we working so hard to give the platform you are in now.

if you think so highly of yourself, fucking hell get out of that slug bed of yours and get out there and do someting about it. fuck up attitude. no way is help gonna come if this attitude carries on. fun yes. but there's time to work. time management. ever heard of that? go read up time management for dummies lah fuck.

and i only have 2 words for this kind of things.
faaaaaark it.

anyway the weekend has been good for me. been absolutely fabolos.
thanks to ..
enlightening by zah.
pyo-pyoing with kin.
where's wally-ing with irfan.
recollecting with jaja.

and i met my 2 bestest friends in secondary school in town.
i miss both of you hotty darlings! even though i doubt u guys can read this. hah!
sigh should call them up for catching up...

and fried mars with vanilla ice cream is ohhhh heaven and earth.
it melts in your mouth not in your hands
close your eyes and imagine
imagine the combi of warm fried mars with vanilla and chocolate syrup..
as u feel the warm crunchy fried mars melting in your mouth
and the vanilla ice cream with its cold tingling feeling in your teeth
slowly it meshes together..
creating a high explosion endorphin level within you
as you savour every moment
and noone nobody nothing can take that moment of erotic orgasm..
and slowly..the crunchy mars..chocolaty taste..cool vanilla..
slowly slides down your throat..
and when i wake you
i'll be the first thing you see
and you'll realise that you love me..

fried mars vanilla ice cream..
im gonna miss you
but ill come and get you

To me, you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me
But you just can't see
You turn every head but you don't see me

FM channel: A Midsummer Night's Dream

its Saturday!
its here again! im not working yeah!
and i did my normal routine.. the newspapers..the tv..slug into my blanket again..
and suddenly..
HOTCAKES!
and its already 11am.. great..!
ive just have to wait for tomoro den..sighs..
i have to get my hotcakes before a week of endless overtime without pay and offs starts!

ever felt the feeling..
as u wake up in the morning
ever felt there's just so much things tt needs to be done
yet you just slug into ur own bed..
ur laziness sinks in
as you tuck urself
under ur blanket..
the warmth feeling
as you put ur hands under ur pillow
and look towards the window
you saw the blue sky
and know itll be a good day..
well this is what made me miss my hotcakes! -.-"

anyway take a look at this kitten...


Cy, short for Cyclops, a kitten born with only one eye and no nose, is shown in this photo provided by its owner in Redmond, Ore., on Dec. 28. The kitten, a ragdoll breed, which died after living for one day, was one of two in the litter. Its sibling was born normal and healthy.

more reports here

How extraordinary..

My heart is as frail as a dove
And my spirit is as weak as a rose
See my sorrow, feel my pain
You're my refuge, You're my reason,
My strength in this beautiful place
That's where I find God
-The Afters - You -

FM channel: nevermin...oh just goblocks world..

i miss eating hotcakes.
i want to eat hotcakes.
i miss. i want. i eat.
i hotcakes.
i want hotcakes.
yes its 1238am and im craving for hotcakes.
i had an interesting idea to blog about just then.
but after falling asleep and awaken by a phone call.
i forgot what i blog idea-ed about.
-.-"
now im writing this worthless,pointless entry..
just to tell the whole world im craving hotcakes.
is this a hint?
and yeah today i can sleep soundly.
cos it made my day!
after a day of gruesome work.
after a day of last minute fault findings.
after a day of sweat and downpour.
it made my day!
i want my hotcakes!
one day ill be with you.
yes you hotcakes.

FM channel: nevermindagoblocks. but mind the hotcakes pls.

you know when you're at work..
and d workload u have just seems so annoyingly alot..
and you just want to be away from the computer and have fun?
well receiving workloads havent been much easier..



anyway here's some stuff bout ur bizarre bodily functions....

What are pins and needles?
Everyone has experienced that sharp tingling sensation in the toes, legs or fingers at some time or another. Pins and needles, or parasthesia, as they are known, generally come about due to pressure on a nerve that is close to the skin surface. Common pins and needles 'hot spots' include the elbow, when the 'funny bone' nerve is subjected to pressure, and the calf or foot from pressure on the nerve below the knee. In the same way, when, for example, we stand up after sitting in a particular position for a long time and our legs appear to have 'gone to sleep', this is the result of a nerve being compressed and then bouncing back into shape.

Why do your body jerk when you're falling asleep?
Ever been just about to drift off into a blissfully deep sleep when suddenly you feel like you are falling, and your body jerks in shock? What you have experienced is called a 'hypnic jerk'. This often occurs during very light sleep, when your body temperature drops - your heart slows down and your conscious brain gradually relinquishes control of your muscles. The general consensus is that this brain activity can make your larger muscles contract, and that, as your body twitches, another part of your brain invents a 'mini-dream' in which you are falling off a cliff, for example. So, next time you wake up with a 'sleep start', just remember it's simply your body's way of telling your muscles to chill.

FM channel: orbiting across galaxy

this world is full of nevermindagoblocks.
atleast the world im living in.

now for all the shit i do for you
for the little peanuts u give
is this how u repay?
stooppid
simply stoopid
ive never lived in a much more stoopid world than this.
but i know this cud be the stoopidest of all
fuck accuse if u dare
may the right prevail,
the accused be victorious
and YOU be stoopid for eternity

FM channel: the nevermindagoblocks world

tomorrow~ tomorrow ~ i love you~ tomorrow ~
tomorrow ~ has come by ~
bismillah!
the hardwork must pay off!
pray for us everybody!

and guess what? I, Zaki, scored for Egypt!
we're going into the finals! Egypt 2-1 Senegal!

oh well hope tomorrow i score too.
reality check.

FM channel: flying high. tomorrow.

few days to go to d BIG day.haha
darn..trainings has intensified
ive escaped a lot of near-death experiences...
ok lil tad exaggerating..
near heavy-injury experiences..
fell wrongly..flat onto d ground..
almost landed head first..
my leg keeps kicking others' faces..
what else..
im tired..my body aches
battered bruised and broken..hmm exaggerating again..
and being thrown around gives me headaches
3 days off pls here i come..
pray it'll all pay off..
if we dont win i dono wat to say..


His weak soul collapsed,
what strength is there?
but even d smallest creatures
can change the fate of the Earth...

and with all his Might,
behold! He withdrew Sting
onto his chest He holds
behold! Blue glows Sting
the filthy Orcs have come!
be ready! be prepared!
filth wreaks into the silent darkness
for the Orcs are never clean
Shrills broke the dark mute
for the Orcs are coming near...

Be unmerciful!
upon them death has been awaited
Be ruthless!
for Hell they have been destined
And only Victory awaits you
Only Victory condones...

Now unleash It
the burning Light in you
for this is your destiny
it has come
Now unleash It
the lightning courage within you
for you are the Bearer
hope has come
and for every strength you've left,
there's always hope...


As d world is becoming older,
the ones living are becoming bolder,
it's wide clear
eternal end is near
For all the ridiculous cartoons ..,
controversial drawings ..,
and blasted caricatures ...
are some of the Signs
that the End is near
let Him settle with those
who defy His Orders..

but in these terrible events,
please be aware
that there has been some Celebration amongst us.
Happy 20th Birthday Brain.A
the World's First Computer Virus.

FM channel: Flying High Flyer

OAG - permysuri

Imajin aku TVmu
Transmisionku terbit untukmu
Dramaku produk khas siaranmu
Trans-sonet gelora Satelit Cinta

Imajin aku radiomu
Intermisionku orbit untukmu
Iramaku rekord khas hiburanmu
Inter-planet kejora Ke marikh asth-mara

per-MY-suri rumahku
per-MY-suri radarku
per-MY-suri syurgaku
Yang teristimewa

Imajin aku VJmu
Transvisiku terbitan untukmu
Karaktorku ilham khas pedomanmu
Trans-fonik gelora satelit cinta

Imajin aku DJ mu
Intervisionku orbit untukmu
Metaforku iltizam khas buatmu
Inter-sonik kejora Ke-marikh asth-mara

Produksimasifantasikurealiti
Buat yang teristimewa...

sing along now..
and cheerleading is fun.
it's not just for girls.
ready? ok! and 5 6 7 8, 1 2! go!

FM channel: yang teristimewa....who?

over Mount Shadow,a Dark shadow glooms
westward reaching,
over the shadows, wings of darkness blooms,
southward moving.
breaking every hill on sight,
darkening every living with light.
but what see did they? fixed were they ears,
for they feel Its presence with their tears.
as the mountains darkens,
the Dead awakens..

the Dark Lord Towers has risen
from beneath the Shadows it arise
the Lord's black sword is driven
from the sheath beneath all Wise

Get out,you old Wight! Vanish in the moonlight!
Shrivel like the shivering mist,like the winds go wailing,
Out into the barren lands far beyond the mountains!
Come never here again! Leave your barrow empty!
Lost and forgotten be,darker than the darkness,
Where gates stand forever shut,till the world is mended
but will it be?

cold be hand and heart and bone,
and cold be sleep under stone
never more to wake on stony bed,
never,till the Sun fails and the Moon is dead
In the black wind the stars shall die,
and still on gold here let them lie,
till the dark lords lift their hands,
over the dead sea and conquered lands.

will it be mended?
will the Light come forth...
may it be.

FM channel: the dark cold night.......

with Anduril as i valiantly ride. noro lim, noro lim, Asfaloth!
the cold hard lands they bites our hands,
they gnaws our feet.
The rocks and stones are like old bones,
all bare of meat.
But stream and pool is wet and cool:
so nice our feet. and now i wish...
alive without breath

to be alive without breath, as cold as death.
for what purpose now do i seek?
as i head for the Sea. to the Sea! the Sea!
is that all i can see?
long are the waves on the Last Shores falling,
Sweet is your voice in the Long Isle calling..
but no man will discover,
that my leaves are falling...
but what is of me becoming?
this cannot be of me.

Cos' i love the sound of you...

FM channel: pneumatic sounds

na na na na hey hey good bye

oh 2005 is coming to an end. thank god.lets hope next year's gonna be better.
alfateha to all those Muslims tt died from Mother Nature's force. katrina,tsunami etc..
and to those tt died from suicide bombs.

so d new year's coming n im stillliving alhamdulillah. lets hope ill live to see d next next year too. and the next next next year. and d next next next n next year. and the...oh u get my point.
so ive taken every second, every minute,every hour,every day,every month, every year..
step by step eii.. starting to cherish every moment eii.. guilty of taking everything for granted eii..
here comes d new year eii.


took dis pic using a hp camera
even Nature agrees. leave those dark clouds behind.. have a fresh start.
have a mentos fresh mint.

Step by step. start anew. baby steps baby steps..
One small step on tiles, One GIANT step for me.


Tough Times Don't Last. Tough Men Do.
and we did.

a rollercoaster year. expressionally. not a year to remember of course. haha
funny. but 2006 better be a good year. a blardy good year perhaps.

Destiny is calling me. Open up my eager eyes cos I'm Mr. Brightside

oh just sing and dance.
your mind and hearts away.
numa numa yeh. numa numa numa yeh.

FM channel: little devil. kiky little. kikinho. maiyahi maiyahu maiyaho maiyahaha.

oh ive pop-ed. tts news.
im on block leave now. dont really have plans on how to maximise your 10 days block leave.
waiting for my new posting.
command school? dont bother. im on 3 months excuse from running marching and jumping...
sigh.
downgrading is a probability.
service side prolly awaits me.
sigh.
we'll see",they said.

I missed the opportunity
to get you babe to stay with me.
Never thought, I'd regret the excuses that I've made
like a song,it will fade

yes im afraid. so?
now's maybe not a good time.
but then again, when is?
courage. please come to me..

If there's music in the night,
And it's really, really right,
It's the only thing I need.
it intoxicates your mind
All your troubles left behind
So come on and take my lead.
it's not just me who feels it
music plays a mind trick
watch me forget about missing you

oh just break my leg will you.
it'll be easier that way.
more running and jumping could result in fracture",she said.
ah heck.

so i put my feelings out to dry
love, one day again,
i'll have to try.
falling out, making up
it seems such a silly game
why do i never gain?

waiting.
is it you? no it's me..
for the right time?
there is no such thing.

FM channel: saving private..who?

Field camp is over~
beraya with snakes are over
today i can beraya~

n by monday ill be inside tekong again..
for my sitest...

with mosquito bites on my forehead tt look like pimples,
and on my hands
bruises and cuts every where
aches everywhere..
i can now dare to say im...

recruit peter pan!


Tak Bisakah - Peter Pan (OST Alexandria)

hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu
selalu selalu dalam hatiku
ku melangkah sejauh apapun itu
selalu engkau di dalam hatiku

ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
berharap temukan sisa hatimu
mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

reff: tak bisakah kau menungguku
hingga nanti tetap menunggu
tak bisakah kau menuntunku
menemani jalan hidupku

ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
berharap temukan sisa hatimu
mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

dara kau menjadi hidupku
kemana kau tahu isi hati
kutunggu sejenak aku di situ
jalanku jalan menemukanmu

repeat reff

FM channel: the ground is my bed, the sky is my shelter, the rifle is my bolster

Selamat Hari Raya Idl Fitri

A Selamat Hari Raya Idl Fitri to all Muslims in Singapore.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

to anyone who know me or is reading this;
ie: you,yes you reading this..dont look ard.its YOU,

ku susun sepuluh jari ku memohon maaf zahir dan batin atas segala salah silap ku selama ini tidak kira tak sengaja atau disengajakan. mohon maaf. hamba cuma insan yg penuh dgn kesilapan.
selamat menyambut idl fitri.

dis yr is somewhat special yet unspecial hari raya for me..
special cos even after gg thru PT,route marches,range,guard duty....COMPLETELY FULL PUASA! woo! shthank u..shtank u....
maybe no big deal for some of u. but hey its cobaan when ppl ard u start drinking when u most need it...
unspecial cos..ill be celebrating most of d days in green baju kurung.

sigh
life of a servant...

finally.im gonna visit some friends dis weekends in d botanical gardens of tekong.
wild boars,snakes,centipedes,lizards...u guys better prepare ur kueh tarts. muahaha.


Edited from Sepasang Kurung Biru;

di hari yg berbahgia ini
hatiku kosong dan sepi sekali
betapa manis kengani lalu
ku sambut raya bersama dgn mu,oh...(hutan hutan..)

tetamu dtg tetamu pergi
namun tak tiba org ku nanti
hanya sepasang kurung hijau
menjadi teman membuat rindu...

FM channel: servant of all trades. happy hari raya.

So Puasa starts next week on wednesday.
Selamat menyambut Ramadhan to all.
Coincidentally first day puasa ive a 4km march.
how cool. mental toughness gonna be stretched to d max.
cos its d first day!
lets pray i can make it.
cos paying back puasa is dreader den puasa during Ramadhan itself.
Perseverence!

Im so happy Ramadhan has come.finally.
Love Ramadhan.
Pure White Month.

oh thanks zah for d comel comment on my botak head.
cute word.
comel.
paling comel.

Just wanna share a song...
current fav...

Peter Pan - Kupu-Kupu Malam

Ada yang benci dirinya
Ada yang butuh dirinya
Ada yang perlu tuk mencintanya
Ada pula yang kejam menyiksa dirinya

Ini hidup wanita si kupu-kupu malam
Bekerja bertaruh seluruh jiwa raga
Bibir senyum kata harus merayu memanja
Kepada setiap mereka yang datang

Dosakah yang dia kerjakan
Sucikah mereka yang datang
Kadang dia tersenyum dalam tangis
Kadang dia menangis di dalam senyuman

Oo apa yang terjadi terjadilah
Yang dia tahu Tuhan penyayang umatNya
Oo apa yang terjadi terjadilah
Yang dia tahu hanyalah menyambung nyawa

currently happy ! i dono why im happy for ! but i am! yeah !
this happens when u do nothing on book out day.
oh well. booking in back...
neverneverland.

FM channel: peter pan. recruit peter pan.

ended song, new song, endless song?

1130 hours! this recruit of yours will be reporting for duty at neverneverland.
and ill be training up to be peter pan!
Recruit Peter Pan!
all dress up in green ! with a green cap! green socks! green boots! green clothes!
dis better be fun!
and ill have tinkerbelle as a buddy!
ill be learning to fly ~

found out an interesting fact today after listening to my countless mp3s so that i wont miss them.
each song have an ending.
weird. but i want a song with no ending.
cos each time i listen a love song, a happy song, a sad song, a dying song, a marriage song n even songs by elmo..it all have endings. and endings are heartbreaking.

i hate endings. endings break people's hearts.
not that my own life will have an ending too. but that's another story..

your song has ended.
can i ever find my neverending song?
im closer to find neverneverland though..

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me. Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes,
That call me on and on across the universe,
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they
Tumble blindly as they make their way
Across the universe Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Sounds of laughter shades of earth are ringing
Through my open ears inciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns, it calls me on and on
Across the universe
Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Jai guru de va, jai guru de va



im leaving one realm for another. neverneverland.

but ill just leave another door open for you. just in case. no,no,no don't lie..

FM channel : recruit kiky

top 10..

boredom is beginning to sink into me. im so bored even money cant buy me out of this situation. i thought not working ill be able to do something fun. well i guess im wrong.
ive been eating breakfast for 3 days in a row. in my sleep. way fun..

anyway last sunday was my officially last day working at the wet theme park. altho ill be working just one more day on teachers day just to kill d fun. i think.

ask me out somebody?! you? yes you!

after working in the guest services department, ive realised how irritating humans can be. yeap including me. im an irritated irritant right now. get close and ill be irritating your irritate.
so i did a list of the top 10 most irritating as a wet theme park guest services staff.

the top 10 most irritating working at the wet theme park

10. Guests who keep coming to the wrong refund booth even when directed. After much wastage of our saliva, they keep comin back to ask again. i said "walk straight,turn left and you'll see a top up booth." and they just walked straight and end up at sakura buffet restaurant. yar refund it there fool.

9. Guests who do not understand the meaning of Park Closed. even when the rides are all closed, they just loved that place do they. we, staff, hate it and want to go home. close at 7! not 8! sleep in the toilet if u want, fool.

8. Constantly telling guests to go through the right Exit turnstile. Even when the Exit sign is visible even by an ant. the sign is really that visible. all you have to do i to look 20 degrees up. that isnt much of a chore aint it? fool.

7. Questions such as "if i go out, can i come in back?" even when there's a sign "Re-Entry". and there's an even bigger sign saying "Do not forget to get your Re-Entry stamp". Fools.

6. "If i'm not playing do i need to pay?" -.-" sure, i'll marry your daughter, but don't worry i wont be having any child with her. can i not pay? sure, ill just walk into the cinema for free cos i wont be watching the movie. sure ill just walk into every place and say i wont be doing anything can i just come in for free..

5. "If i come in , can i play all?" Yes, which is why we stated unlimited access to all rides.

4. Why is the locker only one time usage? because it isn't yours. need i say the F word again. sure. fool.

3. "Why not you change the picture of the pamplet to a beautiful girl? This is a picture of a fat ass!". i hate to admit but i've to agree with the guest this time round. with a beer belly and some unsightly hairs, cant they get any beautiful bikini girl as the front cover. don't believe me? just take a pampjlet at the entrance.

2. How much is the maximum top up? $500. and their eyes will be beaming with shock. love their reaction. if only i could take a picture of it.


but my favourite irritating question of all is.......jeng jeng jeng...


1. When will the lightning/rain stop? arggggghhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i swear each time i wanted to pick up the phone infront of the guest. and call God to ask. "so God, when would you like to stop this lightning and rain?" infinite foolness. extreme foolity. do i look like God to you?


FM channel: shittsy kiky