if only i didn't do what i did..
i could have been there.
if only i did what i didn't do..
i was just too little too late

Al Fateha to my yut, my great grandmother.. (1920-2006)

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

FM Channel: Hold up Hold on Don't be scared You'll never change what's been and gone

from a friend's blog. thought ill just share it with others.
i think this piece is really whacked! haha
enjoy..


FM Channel: commercial break...

now i think ill dedicate this entry to my two best buddies i have. hoho if you think im getting emotional and start to cry and praise them,you thought wrong. we're guys. so let's just make do with the kutok-ing.
so before i start..
Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin!

for the bike-riding to Esplanade, supper at Zam Zam's, soccer matches which we seem to always lose everytime i play(dammit am i a jinx or what?!), endless bollywood movies and clips yusoff tries to instill in us, shopping spree which ends up with nobody buying anything at all, the girls we used to admire and thought dammit we'll never get them, from the very much kental ,esp the mIRC days, to a (as YuS like to put it..) slightly cooler days right now...
THANKS A JAGAZILLIONAIRE dudes!


from the kental days.
from left: YuS ThE MaN(hoho!), semOtRed(HOHO!) and semOtOren(even louder hoho!)
notice YuS ThE MaN's fashion paux man. with that cap terbalik,sweater in what tropic country?, plus all d accesories.. No wonder he's the MAN!!!!



now slightly cooler days.
ok we're still kental. so what?!
geek chic is THE in thing at the moment. LOL!

\/ Peace to Dil Chata Hai!

FM channel: dil chata hai from the eyes of a little child

no thanks to a bug(buzzz) ive gotten the flu. had 2 days MC no less thanks to it. but it's a nice thing in a way i got to watch mtv all day long. hoho! oh well i've got a stinking parade rehearsal tomorrow no less.

but the weekend has been fun. yeah.

first up was friday night D&D at Bukit Batok Civil Service Club!
let's bring sexy back yeah!

with the She-Devils,Noris the Diva and Maia Lee in the house bebeh. lots of dancing,lots of ehem grinding? lots of photos. dont think ill post em up. too explicit. LOL!
but stinking tangan tak cebok,i didnt manage to get that Sony PSP lucky draw i was eyeing. dang..

Saturday was raya with the best buddies and their repective partners minus Awal and me. so me and Awal were a couple for the day. hoho!


and Sunday was with my Nadi Kesenianeans minus my 2 lovers who apparently had to ditch me!!! yes you Kin and you Zah!



no less i got to meet them d other weekend at Zah's open house..


so yeah it has been a wild weekend. non stop outing for me. thus the flu bug. thanks to the gallons of oren,tonnes of food and the travelling. but peace we'll still carry on..we'll carry on...

FM channel: sex,booze and rock and roll? nahh more of sexy,oren and loads of cheekis!

i asked a good bud of mine about why am i having such heart luck.
he replied "maybe God just want to save you."
haha maybe quite true enough. oh well...



the family, kids plus bibik.
danish just cant keep still hence d blurred face.


still cant keep still..


perfect!

FM channel: hai duit raya lupa nak diberi~

Ooh tomorrow's the Day!
Selamat Hari Raya Eid Fitri to all. Apologies for all d wrongs,sins,crimes,annoyance,irritation etc. I've ever caused to every single soul that knows me,knows you and the don't knows yous and mes.

Time can pass very fast when you just start to savour the moment.
I thought the first day of fasting was just yesterday.
Ok no it was a month ago. I remember persevering not to break fast when all the rest around me did. Especially after a run around the camp. Followed by a gym session. Followed by soccer. Followed by the endless repairing of junk trucks. Followed by a 3km walk out of camp. Followed by a 15 minutes walk from interchange to home. Followed by the endless speech on the radio. And then comes the Azan.

But time can be very slow when you're bored.
Was thinking..
I remember that never-ending in-flight information screen that tells passengers how far they've come, and how many miles remain. It's so sloooooowwwwwwwwwwww. Stare at it intently enough and time goes backwards. And do we really need to know that the outside temperature is -59 degrees Fahrenheit? Does this information comfort us with the knowledge that should we crash and somehow survive, death by exposure willbe swift and merciful? Also, Celcius conversion seems unnecessary,as around -59, electrons probably crawl to a stop, like Ping-Pong balls on a basement floor. Ok, i know it's 222.6 degrees Kelvin,-50.56 degrees Celcius.

FM channel: Eid Mubarak.

someone just taught me good stuff..

preun bok wa khun pen khon ngaai ngaai... jing reu plao tirak?
hohoho.

today better be a good day.
no it better be a glorious gorgeous day.
let's pray.
altogether now...

FM channel: if hope is a myth, then what's magic?

Disini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia ku denganmu

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Disini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yang lain
Mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
Sayang ku akan hilang

If u love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
Wouldn’t reach my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart

All the world's a stage and the men and women are merely players
Then whom does mine belong to?

FM Channel: My Heart

Oh baby dont you know I suffer?
Oh baby can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretenses
How long before you let me go?
I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth

You set my soul alight
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

Cos' MSN Messenger is being a supermassive arsehole..
wargh!

heard Muse coming..true?or not?

FM channel: The Unintended Supermassive Blackhole

dont be afraid, maybe its our fate
just wait and see im gonna shout about it
its just you and me against the world
don't waste the time for tomorrow

hey digital
you're nothing but a bitch on strings
you'll be back milking cows before you cash the cheque
I'll just wait around till you fade away like the rest
like the best of the best

do you understand my monologue?
These are the words of the unsophisticated money machines

FM channel: so let's put them aside..let the worries behind us

i realised ive not updated for near 2 mths.aint tt cool or wart!
being missing is kinda cool. n getting emersed in work.tuition.work.ndp.work.work.work.tuition.ndp.

talking bout ndp..
lotsa goofing around. lotsa perspiring around. not forgetting eye candies.
part touching time President acknowledged our salute.

and then d celebration! and the off days i accumulated!

and celebration reminds me of Teacher's Day.
Happy Teacher's Day to all Teachers. -.-"
not tt im one. but teaching in a tuition centre makes me one. i guess..


some of the things kids do..

damn dis entry is boring.. oh well ill try someting else next time...

FM channel: Teacher Teaches Teachings

i hate humidity.
humidity feels like hundreds of strangers touching you.

FM channel: it's getting hott in herre.

im getting tired at this.
too tired.
jaded.
i think im succumbed to this fate.
why. why.
you're teasing me.

oh and i got myself a novel.
jPod by Douglas Coupland.
no idea why i got myself a book.
Mom's cool with the idea.
she thinks im getting in touch with my intellectual roots.

Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want

Roses are red
Some diamonds are blue
Chivalry is dead
But you're still kinda cute

FM channel: Promiscous. I be the first to admit it, I’m curious about you, you seem so innocent

and i would wish
upon a star
but that star
it doesn't shine..
so read my book
with a boring ending
a short story
of a sorry life..

and when i wake you
i'll be the first thing you see
and your eyes shall never set free
from me

FM channel: unpredictable complexity

i realise i share the same birth date as Patrick Vieira and Zinedine Zidane.
cool!
tt explains...

FM channel: born among the greatest

Happy Good 21 Day to me!
or happy sick day to me..
or happy ive-been-sick-for-one-whole-week-and-sick-keeps-coming day
sigh...

first the 39.5 degree Influenza.
then the most terrible tonsillitis ive ever had.
cant swallow food. cant swallow water.
now don swallow anyting also hurts..
sneeze also hurts...
then in came d icing to the cake.
i cut my thumb really deep.
at work.
great. simply great.
WARGHHH!



-sakit tu tanda2 dah nak besar

-sakit tu pasal nak hilangkan dosa

Which one to believe?

FM channel: happy bird-day to me

i love this song. forever.

Super Furry Animals - Juxtapozed With You

It's easy when you know how
To get along without Biff! Bang! Pow!
And if I see that you're fed up,
I'll stop and give you a leg up.

Over priced unreal estate,
Surreal estate,
The highest price they've hit to date,
Creating new divides and tension.

You've got to tolerate,
All those people that you hate,
I'm not in love with you,
But I wont hold that against you,
You've got to tolerate,
Some of those people that you hate,
I'm not in love with you,
But I wont hold that against you.

This is a tale of 2 city/situations,
Mutual appreciation,
Away from narrow pre-conception,
Avoiding conflict hyper-tension,
Non-phobic word aerobic.
This was my domain,
Till someone stole my name.

You've got to tolerate ...etc.
Let's get juxtaposed, juxtaposed,Just suppose I juxtapose with you...

FM channel: Rings around the world

it's been a sad month.
nevertheless Allah loves them more.

Al-Fateha to:
-Abang Jai's wife; Saleha bte Saleh
-Mohamed Faizal bin Omar

Semoga Allah swt merahmati roh2 mereka.

FM channel: Al Fateha...

suddup lah..faaaark it

apparently after infinite weeks of being an annoying,self-indulging,cant-stop-talking geeky schizo schezel... i think its time to be back to my old,last-century,wartime history self.
the textbook,comicbook,storybook very quiet scared of everyone geeky self.

Best way to converse is not to talk at all.
why?
it avoids controversy.
it avoids putting urself in a spot.
it avoids being irritating and annoying.
best of all..
there's no reason to be oblivious about things.
AND,
there's not reason to be at all sorry.
both for something you do or something you dont.
cos silence stays in the backdrop.

just stay quiet and observe the beautiful things around you.
its time to hear d birds sing.
its time to feel the morning breeze.
its time to see the sun rise.
its time to not to talk.

on the contrary..

semangkin hari semangkin serasi
bagai pagi dgn sinar matahari
bagai malam dgn kerdipan bintang yg berseri

i wish ah!
faarkkk it lahhh..
baiiik!!

FM channel: schizo schezel

boiling point yet endorphins on a high

its fucking irritating tt some people think they are so good they cant accept criticism and move on and do something about it. and all they do is give fucking stupid reasons. fucking shit. yes humans make mistakes. but with this kind of continuing attitude, humans will make mistakes till the end of time. fucking hell shit bloody sia hamba koo ke nyeng kweng kuo!

strive for perfection lah kanna!
even if there is no such thing as perfection.. there's something as close to perfection and that's something to be proud of and not some cock up thingy!

if this continues that's the end of everything. so much for we working so hard to give the platform you are in now.

if you think so highly of yourself, fucking hell get out of that slug bed of yours and get out there and do someting about it. fuck up attitude. no way is help gonna come if this attitude carries on. fun yes. but there's time to work. time management. ever heard of that? go read up time management for dummies lah fuck.

and i only have 2 words for this kind of things.
faaaaaark it.

anyway the weekend has been good for me. been absolutely fabolos.
thanks to ..
enlightening by zah.
pyo-pyoing with kin.
where's wally-ing with irfan.
recollecting with jaja.

and i met my 2 bestest friends in secondary school in town.
i miss both of you hotty darlings! even though i doubt u guys can read this. hah!
sigh should call them up for catching up...

and fried mars with vanilla ice cream is ohhhh heaven and earth.
it melts in your mouth not in your hands
close your eyes and imagine
imagine the combi of warm fried mars with vanilla and chocolate syrup..
as u feel the warm crunchy fried mars melting in your mouth
and the vanilla ice cream with its cold tingling feeling in your teeth
slowly it meshes together..
creating a high explosion endorphin level within you
as you savour every moment
and noone nobody nothing can take that moment of erotic orgasm..
and slowly..the crunchy mars..chocolaty taste..cool vanilla..
slowly slides down your throat..
and when i wake you
i'll be the first thing you see
and you'll realise that you love me..

fried mars vanilla ice cream..
im gonna miss you
but ill come and get you

To me, you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me
But you just can't see
You turn every head but you don't see me

FM channel: A Midsummer Night's Dream

its Saturday!
its here again! im not working yeah!
and i did my normal routine.. the newspapers..the tv..slug into my blanket again..
and suddenly..
HOTCAKES!
and its already 11am.. great..!
ive just have to wait for tomoro den..sighs..
i have to get my hotcakes before a week of endless overtime without pay and offs starts!

ever felt the feeling..
as u wake up in the morning
ever felt there's just so much things tt needs to be done
yet you just slug into ur own bed..
ur laziness sinks in
as you tuck urself
under ur blanket..
the warmth feeling
as you put ur hands under ur pillow
and look towards the window
you saw the blue sky
and know itll be a good day..
well this is what made me miss my hotcakes! -.-"

anyway take a look at this kitten...


Cy, short for Cyclops, a kitten born with only one eye and no nose, is shown in this photo provided by its owner in Redmond, Ore., on Dec. 28. The kitten, a ragdoll breed, which died after living for one day, was one of two in the litter. Its sibling was born normal and healthy.

more reports here

How extraordinary..

My heart is as frail as a dove
And my spirit is as weak as a rose
See my sorrow, feel my pain
You're my refuge, You're my reason,
My strength in this beautiful place
That's where I find God
-The Afters - You -

FM channel: nevermin...oh just goblocks world..

i miss eating hotcakes.
i want to eat hotcakes.
i miss. i want. i eat.
i hotcakes.
i want hotcakes.
yes its 1238am and im craving for hotcakes.
i had an interesting idea to blog about just then.
but after falling asleep and awaken by a phone call.
i forgot what i blog idea-ed about.
-.-"
now im writing this worthless,pointless entry..
just to tell the whole world im craving hotcakes.
is this a hint?
and yeah today i can sleep soundly.
cos it made my day!
after a day of gruesome work.
after a day of last minute fault findings.
after a day of sweat and downpour.
it made my day!
i want my hotcakes!
one day ill be with you.
yes you hotcakes.

FM channel: nevermindagoblocks. but mind the hotcakes pls.

you know when you're at work..
and d workload u have just seems so annoyingly alot..
and you just want to be away from the computer and have fun?
well receiving workloads havent been much easier..



anyway here's some stuff bout ur bizarre bodily functions....

What are pins and needles?
Everyone has experienced that sharp tingling sensation in the toes, legs or fingers at some time or another. Pins and needles, or parasthesia, as they are known, generally come about due to pressure on a nerve that is close to the skin surface. Common pins and needles 'hot spots' include the elbow, when the 'funny bone' nerve is subjected to pressure, and the calf or foot from pressure on the nerve below the knee. In the same way, when, for example, we stand up after sitting in a particular position for a long time and our legs appear to have 'gone to sleep', this is the result of a nerve being compressed and then bouncing back into shape.

Why do your body jerk when you're falling asleep?
Ever been just about to drift off into a blissfully deep sleep when suddenly you feel like you are falling, and your body jerks in shock? What you have experienced is called a 'hypnic jerk'. This often occurs during very light sleep, when your body temperature drops - your heart slows down and your conscious brain gradually relinquishes control of your muscles. The general consensus is that this brain activity can make your larger muscles contract, and that, as your body twitches, another part of your brain invents a 'mini-dream' in which you are falling off a cliff, for example. So, next time you wake up with a 'sleep start', just remember it's simply your body's way of telling your muscles to chill.

FM channel: orbiting across galaxy

this world is full of nevermindagoblocks.
atleast the world im living in.

now for all the shit i do for you
for the little peanuts u give
is this how u repay?
stooppid
simply stoopid
ive never lived in a much more stoopid world than this.
but i know this cud be the stoopidest of all
fuck accuse if u dare
may the right prevail,
the accused be victorious
and YOU be stoopid for eternity

FM channel: the nevermindagoblocks world

tomorrow~ tomorrow ~ i love you~ tomorrow ~
tomorrow ~ has come by ~
bismillah!
the hardwork must pay off!
pray for us everybody!

and guess what? I, Zaki, scored for Egypt!
we're going into the finals! Egypt 2-1 Senegal!

oh well hope tomorrow i score too.
reality check.

FM channel: flying high. tomorrow.

few days to go to d BIG day.haha
darn..trainings has intensified
ive escaped a lot of near-death experiences...
ok lil tad exaggerating..
near heavy-injury experiences..
fell wrongly..flat onto d ground..
almost landed head first..
my leg keeps kicking others' faces..
what else..
im tired..my body aches
battered bruised and broken..hmm exaggerating again..
and being thrown around gives me headaches
3 days off pls here i come..
pray it'll all pay off..
if we dont win i dono wat to say..


His weak soul collapsed,
what strength is there?
but even d smallest creatures
can change the fate of the Earth...

and with all his Might,
behold! He withdrew Sting
onto his chest He holds
behold! Blue glows Sting
the filthy Orcs have come!
be ready! be prepared!
filth wreaks into the silent darkness
for the Orcs are never clean
Shrills broke the dark mute
for the Orcs are coming near...

Be unmerciful!
upon them death has been awaited
Be ruthless!
for Hell they have been destined
And only Victory awaits you
Only Victory condones...

Now unleash It
the burning Light in you
for this is your destiny
it has come
Now unleash It
the lightning courage within you
for you are the Bearer
hope has come
and for every strength you've left,
there's always hope...


As d world is becoming older,
the ones living are becoming bolder,
it's wide clear
eternal end is near
For all the ridiculous cartoons ..,
controversial drawings ..,
and blasted caricatures ...
are some of the Signs
that the End is near
let Him settle with those
who defy His Orders..

but in these terrible events,
please be aware
that there has been some Celebration amongst us.
Happy 20th Birthday Brain.A
the World's First Computer Virus.

FM channel: Flying High Flyer

OAG - permysuri

Imajin aku TVmu
Transmisionku terbit untukmu
Dramaku produk khas siaranmu
Trans-sonet gelora Satelit Cinta

Imajin aku radiomu
Intermisionku orbit untukmu
Iramaku rekord khas hiburanmu
Inter-planet kejora Ke marikh asth-mara

per-MY-suri rumahku
per-MY-suri radarku
per-MY-suri syurgaku
Yang teristimewa

Imajin aku VJmu
Transvisiku terbitan untukmu
Karaktorku ilham khas pedomanmu
Trans-fonik gelora satelit cinta

Imajin aku DJ mu
Intervisionku orbit untukmu
Metaforku iltizam khas buatmu
Inter-sonik kejora Ke-marikh asth-mara

Produksimasifantasikurealiti
Buat yang teristimewa...

sing along now..
and cheerleading is fun.
it's not just for girls.
ready? ok! and 5 6 7 8, 1 2! go!

FM channel: yang teristimewa....who?

over Mount Shadow,a Dark shadow glooms
westward reaching,
over the shadows, wings of darkness blooms,
southward moving.
breaking every hill on sight,
darkening every living with light.
but what see did they? fixed were they ears,
for they feel Its presence with their tears.
as the mountains darkens,
the Dead awakens..

the Dark Lord Towers has risen
from beneath the Shadows it arise
the Lord's black sword is driven
from the sheath beneath all Wise

Get out,you old Wight! Vanish in the moonlight!
Shrivel like the shivering mist,like the winds go wailing,
Out into the barren lands far beyond the mountains!
Come never here again! Leave your barrow empty!
Lost and forgotten be,darker than the darkness,
Where gates stand forever shut,till the world is mended
but will it be?

cold be hand and heart and bone,
and cold be sleep under stone
never more to wake on stony bed,
never,till the Sun fails and the Moon is dead
In the black wind the stars shall die,
and still on gold here let them lie,
till the dark lords lift their hands,
over the dead sea and conquered lands.

will it be mended?
will the Light come forth...
may it be.

FM channel: the dark cold night.......

with Anduril as i valiantly ride. noro lim, noro lim, Asfaloth!
the cold hard lands they bites our hands,
they gnaws our feet.
The rocks and stones are like old bones,
all bare of meat.
But stream and pool is wet and cool:
so nice our feet. and now i wish...
alive without breath

to be alive without breath, as cold as death.
for what purpose now do i seek?
as i head for the Sea. to the Sea! the Sea!
is that all i can see?
long are the waves on the Last Shores falling,
Sweet is your voice in the Long Isle calling..
but no man will discover,
that my leaves are falling...
but what is of me becoming?
this cannot be of me.

Cos' i love the sound of you...

FM channel: pneumatic sounds