na na na na hey hey good bye

oh 2005 is coming to an end. thank god.lets hope next year's gonna be better.
alfateha to all those Muslims tt died from Mother Nature's force. katrina,tsunami etc..
and to those tt died from suicide bombs.

so d new year's coming n im stillliving alhamdulillah. lets hope ill live to see d next next year too. and the next next next year. and d next next next n next year. and the...oh u get my point.
so ive taken every second, every minute,every hour,every day,every month, every year..
step by step eii.. starting to cherish every moment eii.. guilty of taking everything for granted eii..
here comes d new year eii.


took dis pic using a hp camera
even Nature agrees. leave those dark clouds behind.. have a fresh start.
have a mentos fresh mint.

Step by step. start anew. baby steps baby steps..
One small step on tiles, One GIANT step for me.


Tough Times Don't Last. Tough Men Do.
and we did.

a rollercoaster year. expressionally. not a year to remember of course. haha
funny. but 2006 better be a good year. a blardy good year perhaps.

Destiny is calling me. Open up my eager eyes cos I'm Mr. Brightside

oh just sing and dance.
your mind and hearts away.
numa numa yeh. numa numa numa yeh.

FM channel: little devil. kiky little. kikinho. maiyahi maiyahu maiyaho maiyahaha.

oh ive pop-ed. tts news.
im on block leave now. dont really have plans on how to maximise your 10 days block leave.
waiting for my new posting.
command school? dont bother. im on 3 months excuse from running marching and jumping...
sigh.
downgrading is a probability.
service side prolly awaits me.
sigh.
we'll see",they said.

I missed the opportunity
to get you babe to stay with me.
Never thought, I'd regret the excuses that I've made
like a song,it will fade

yes im afraid. so?
now's maybe not a good time.
but then again, when is?
courage. please come to me..

If there's music in the night,
And it's really, really right,
It's the only thing I need.
it intoxicates your mind
All your troubles left behind
So come on and take my lead.
it's not just me who feels it
music plays a mind trick
watch me forget about missing you

oh just break my leg will you.
it'll be easier that way.
more running and jumping could result in fracture",she said.
ah heck.

so i put my feelings out to dry
love, one day again,
i'll have to try.
falling out, making up
it seems such a silly game
why do i never gain?

waiting.
is it you? no it's me..
for the right time?
there is no such thing.

FM channel: saving private..who?

Field camp is over~
beraya with snakes are over
today i can beraya~

n by monday ill be inside tekong again..
for my sitest...

with mosquito bites on my forehead tt look like pimples,
and on my hands
bruises and cuts every where
aches everywhere..
i can now dare to say im...

recruit peter pan!


Tak Bisakah - Peter Pan (OST Alexandria)

hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu
selalu selalu dalam hatiku
ku melangkah sejauh apapun itu
selalu engkau di dalam hatiku

ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
berharap temukan sisa hatimu
mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

reff: tak bisakah kau menungguku
hingga nanti tetap menunggu
tak bisakah kau menuntunku
menemani jalan hidupku

ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
berharap temukan sisa hatimu
mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
mengerti kau di dalam hatiku

dara kau menjadi hidupku
kemana kau tahu isi hati
kutunggu sejenak aku di situ
jalanku jalan menemukanmu

repeat reff

FM channel: the ground is my bed, the sky is my shelter, the rifle is my bolster

Selamat Hari Raya Idl Fitri

A Selamat Hari Raya Idl Fitri to all Muslims in Singapore.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

to anyone who know me or is reading this;
ie: you,yes you reading this..dont look ard.its YOU,

ku susun sepuluh jari ku memohon maaf zahir dan batin atas segala salah silap ku selama ini tidak kira tak sengaja atau disengajakan. mohon maaf. hamba cuma insan yg penuh dgn kesilapan.
selamat menyambut idl fitri.

dis yr is somewhat special yet unspecial hari raya for me..
special cos even after gg thru PT,route marches,range,guard duty....COMPLETELY FULL PUASA! woo! shthank u..shtank u....
maybe no big deal for some of u. but hey its cobaan when ppl ard u start drinking when u most need it...
unspecial cos..ill be celebrating most of d days in green baju kurung.

sigh
life of a servant...

finally.im gonna visit some friends dis weekends in d botanical gardens of tekong.
wild boars,snakes,centipedes,lizards...u guys better prepare ur kueh tarts. muahaha.


Edited from Sepasang Kurung Biru;

di hari yg berbahgia ini
hatiku kosong dan sepi sekali
betapa manis kengani lalu
ku sambut raya bersama dgn mu,oh...(hutan hutan..)

tetamu dtg tetamu pergi
namun tak tiba org ku nanti
hanya sepasang kurung hijau
menjadi teman membuat rindu...

FM channel: servant of all trades. happy hari raya.

So Puasa starts next week on wednesday.
Selamat menyambut Ramadhan to all.
Coincidentally first day puasa ive a 4km march.
how cool. mental toughness gonna be stretched to d max.
cos its d first day!
lets pray i can make it.
cos paying back puasa is dreader den puasa during Ramadhan itself.
Perseverence!

Im so happy Ramadhan has come.finally.
Love Ramadhan.
Pure White Month.

oh thanks zah for d comel comment on my botak head.
cute word.
comel.
paling comel.

Just wanna share a song...
current fav...

Peter Pan - Kupu-Kupu Malam

Ada yang benci dirinya
Ada yang butuh dirinya
Ada yang perlu tuk mencintanya
Ada pula yang kejam menyiksa dirinya

Ini hidup wanita si kupu-kupu malam
Bekerja bertaruh seluruh jiwa raga
Bibir senyum kata harus merayu memanja
Kepada setiap mereka yang datang

Dosakah yang dia kerjakan
Sucikah mereka yang datang
Kadang dia tersenyum dalam tangis
Kadang dia menangis di dalam senyuman

Oo apa yang terjadi terjadilah
Yang dia tahu Tuhan penyayang umatNya
Oo apa yang terjadi terjadilah
Yang dia tahu hanyalah menyambung nyawa

currently happy ! i dono why im happy for ! but i am! yeah !
this happens when u do nothing on book out day.
oh well. booking in back...
neverneverland.

FM channel: peter pan. recruit peter pan.

ended song, new song, endless song?

1130 hours! this recruit of yours will be reporting for duty at neverneverland.
and ill be training up to be peter pan!
Recruit Peter Pan!
all dress up in green ! with a green cap! green socks! green boots! green clothes!
dis better be fun!
and ill have tinkerbelle as a buddy!
ill be learning to fly ~

found out an interesting fact today after listening to my countless mp3s so that i wont miss them.
each song have an ending.
weird. but i want a song with no ending.
cos each time i listen a love song, a happy song, a sad song, a dying song, a marriage song n even songs by elmo..it all have endings. and endings are heartbreaking.

i hate endings. endings break people's hearts.
not that my own life will have an ending too. but that's another story..

your song has ended.
can i ever find my neverending song?
im closer to find neverneverland though..

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me. Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes,
That call me on and on across the universe,
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they
Tumble blindly as they make their way
Across the universe Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Sounds of laughter shades of earth are ringing
Through my open ears inciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns, it calls me on and on
Across the universe
Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world

Jai guru de va, jai guru de va



im leaving one realm for another. neverneverland.

but ill just leave another door open for you. just in case. no,no,no don't lie..

FM channel : recruit kiky

top 10..

boredom is beginning to sink into me. im so bored even money cant buy me out of this situation. i thought not working ill be able to do something fun. well i guess im wrong.
ive been eating breakfast for 3 days in a row. in my sleep. way fun..

anyway last sunday was my officially last day working at the wet theme park. altho ill be working just one more day on teachers day just to kill d fun. i think.

ask me out somebody?! you? yes you!

after working in the guest services department, ive realised how irritating humans can be. yeap including me. im an irritated irritant right now. get close and ill be irritating your irritate.
so i did a list of the top 10 most irritating as a wet theme park guest services staff.

the top 10 most irritating working at the wet theme park

10. Guests who keep coming to the wrong refund booth even when directed. After much wastage of our saliva, they keep comin back to ask again. i said "walk straight,turn left and you'll see a top up booth." and they just walked straight and end up at sakura buffet restaurant. yar refund it there fool.

9. Guests who do not understand the meaning of Park Closed. even when the rides are all closed, they just loved that place do they. we, staff, hate it and want to go home. close at 7! not 8! sleep in the toilet if u want, fool.

8. Constantly telling guests to go through the right Exit turnstile. Even when the Exit sign is visible even by an ant. the sign is really that visible. all you have to do i to look 20 degrees up. that isnt much of a chore aint it? fool.

7. Questions such as "if i go out, can i come in back?" even when there's a sign "Re-Entry". and there's an even bigger sign saying "Do not forget to get your Re-Entry stamp". Fools.

6. "If i'm not playing do i need to pay?" -.-" sure, i'll marry your daughter, but don't worry i wont be having any child with her. can i not pay? sure, ill just walk into the cinema for free cos i wont be watching the movie. sure ill just walk into every place and say i wont be doing anything can i just come in for free..

5. "If i come in , can i play all?" Yes, which is why we stated unlimited access to all rides.

4. Why is the locker only one time usage? because it isn't yours. need i say the F word again. sure. fool.

3. "Why not you change the picture of the pamplet to a beautiful girl? This is a picture of a fat ass!". i hate to admit but i've to agree with the guest this time round. with a beer belly and some unsightly hairs, cant they get any beautiful bikini girl as the front cover. don't believe me? just take a pampjlet at the entrance.

2. How much is the maximum top up? $500. and their eyes will be beaming with shock. love their reaction. if only i could take a picture of it.


but my favourite irritating question of all is.......jeng jeng jeng...


1. When will the lightning/rain stop? arggggghhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i swear each time i wanted to pick up the phone infront of the guest. and call God to ask. "so God, when would you like to stop this lightning and rain?" infinite foolness. extreme foolity. do i look like God to you?


FM channel: shittsy kiky

lotsa lotsa ideas. and nothing to write.

the title says all. ive been having alot of ideas to blog about. ALOT.
too many. tt if i dont start writing it down once i think of it,itll all go down the drain.
or maybe i just chose not to write it here. haiyah.

down the drain. hmm sounds familiar..

anyway to you #1,
be strong.
insyaallah ull find ur path.
pray hard.
have faith.

oh reality hurts.

and to you #2,
may d light be there in times of need.
and itll light up ur darkness.

gracias para adorarme to #1 and #2.

mueve en una opcion?

FM channel: huh? whose radio is this anyway?

so we...

So we..
walk to the left
as we walk to the right
as we walk as we walk as we walk all night.
on the heels and the toes
and the halfway turn.
on the heels and the toes
and a new friend found?...

so i walked. and i walked. all the way back home.
alone.
tampines to bedok north. cool eii.
well i had motorists,buses and cars accompanying me all along.
kinda perspiring.
only realized till i got home.
walked until perspire.
i should stop before i get thinner.
and i am already one. haiz.
perspire all over. body. hands. face. eyes.
wet wet wet ! just like the term foreigners call wild wild wet.

but wasnt tired. maybe just a tingling painful feeling on my calfs. haha.
adrenaline rush they say.
i say adrenaline crush.

Menanti Sebuah Jawapan - Padi, Soundtrack of Violet Ungu

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
Seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku tak terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu

Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yg terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

a lovely song.
well..
have i got the answer?
y 57.1 .drocer dlrow lanosrep .emit kcolc .tsilanif gnisol .ecalp tsal

Cuz kiky doesn't know,
kiky doesn't know,
kiky doesn't know,
kiky doesn't know.
So don't tell kiky.
kiky doesn't knoooooow....
DON'T TELL KIKY!

hehe. crazy fellow..

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

given.

What if there was no lie
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason, or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
What if I got it wrong
And no poet or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong

FM channel: kiky,shittsy,dreamy. sorry,ur not included laffy.

last days civilianhood

about 1 month left to civilianhood.
n im finally off to paradise island.
where most things are free,
except your body.
and mind.

speaking of free.
why do ppl trade time for money.
why do dey do tt when dey say dey're not after the world.
n dey criticise d ppl who are after bigger things.
when dey shud look upon themselves.
applies to all sort of life.
look upon thyself before thee look upon others.
why eh.
some ppl trade it for other things.
like for time? time for time. wth.
ill trade money for time if i cud,
n can someone trade time for me den.

just..
one...
more...
month....
isit too much to ask?

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got no where to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me !


aaaa...... aaaaaaaaaa... aaaaaaaaaa....... aaaaaaaa...... arghh!!!!!!!

FM channel: untitled.

kungfu - war - hatred = music!

too much hatred in this blog lately. really. too much. this just wont do.

kiky this is too much! its just not u!
wasnt me! its shittsy! whoever u are!

and they said i don talk and sound real me like im cyber me. don't i? its me you know.
if i sound me, there's nothing to read.
why read me. when they can read me.

im beginning to hate watching the news. yes i do watch it.
im beginning to hate reading the newspaper. yes i read it.
im beginning to hate everything tt is so negative. everything bad! not that im not one of them. well im improving. improving in trying to improve.*whistles*
every page i turn. every news i watch. war. hatred. negativity. evil! damn satan.
can the world ever be in peace. probably another chapter after this world.

kamehameha (good) vs kamehameha (evil)

battle between good and bad. positivity and negativity.
it'll never end do they..?


the world just need to stop and breathe for a minute!
breathe with me !
inhale.exhale.inhale.exhale.inhale.exhale.inhale.oh just do it.

maybe the world needs some music.

Everybody was kung-fu fighting ~
Those cats were fast as lightning ~
In fact it was a little bit frightning ~
But they fought with expert timing ~


And some dance.

FM channel: kung fu kiky! haiyak!

Y is after Z.

after reading back my last entry, i realised noone understands except me i gez. haha. wat crap..

anyway to sum up, im angry at d letter Y for being before Z. from now on d alphabet for me goes like dis...

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXZY..

this way im way ahead of u. hah!
by now u must be thinking im stupid or wateva..


well..
...



just feeling....


angry ! effed up! wargh !!


and kamehameha you to hell!!




FM channel: super saiyan shittsy

fuck! its Y!

my days been busy. had a lot to do. something's been bugging me lately. irritating me quite alot. making me mad.
its the zombys. or the Y-idiots.
fuck the zombys! kill the Y-idiots!

who are these stupid brainless fucking idiotical zombys?
they were people. until they got hibernated and infected or as i like to put it, crapped and fucked.
and became...ZOMBY IDIOTS! the Generation Y idiots!

they walk among us. only more genetically defected and with skin decay all over their body. with a hinge of pungent smell. you wont miss them. and they wear green !
ull spot them giving away free berets. never take free berets from them. ull get infected too if you do.
YOU'VE BEEN WARNED.

encountered some of the Y-people. tried to gave me free berets. until i declined. and they started to attack me. and they tried to take away my cherific life.
i tried to avoid every blow. but they finally made a long scar on my chest.
was pissed off. it tore my Respect t-shirt! damn i love tt t shirt !

and something happened. no i didnt turn into a Super Saiyan. neither did i discovered Kryptonite powers. nor fell into a Bat cave.

Something clicked with me. And it clicked. And clicked. And clicked. And clicked. And then reloaded. i was holding on to a Magnum. where the hell did it come from, i dont know.

been clicking and reloading ever since.

Head shot. Head shot. Head shot. and they all finally died.
i think it sparked other Y-idiots to come and feel the wrath of my Magnum.
feel free to come you volunteery Y-idiots!

die Y idiots. hope you die and burn in hell. and die and burn in hell over and over again.

Click. Reload. Die Maggots. Y.

R21: Violence.

FM channel: shittsy. click. click. click. reload.
when a tragika* happens, the innocent gets crushed in the middle.

woah! overnight poet!

i was bloghopping..when suddenly i came across someone's blog.. and i was reading her bloggy.. just skimming through when suddenly i read something familiar.. here goes..


Yesterdae.the past,
Today. the present,
tomorrow the future,
Everybody hav past,
Dun regret about the pasts.
its there.work on it.improve it.for tomorrow,
tomorrow where the future happens.
work it.bulid it.dream it.
But dun forget about today,the present,the most important.
coz witout today,thre's no tomorrow.
~love you,true,always,yesterday,today,tomorrow~
dated:26.06.05


when something struck me.. its from my blog ! my creation !
see my blog dated 24.05.05 !!
wow. cant believe i saw it from a stranger's blog. haha.
kinda cool.
how can something i wrote out of ermm emo? haha can appear else where.
thank you stranger for using it.
kinda make me feel like a poet. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
to be or not to be (a poet) ~ that is the question..? ~
oh crap!

FM channel : DREAMY ~

kazaam!

i never had anything to do when i work on night shifts. doing cashier work,all i only had to do is to top up every idiot's funkey cards. the wet theme park is closed by 7. so that's the only job i had. but that's not the point..

i was reading my book and listening to the radio when suddenly i noticed something on my computer's taskbar. there is usually only the cashier program and to have something else is something weird. i clicked it....

ngi yang in son mah te aji semar ngi sing!

an artwork done using Paint. simply art.


FM channel: laffy !!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

:: HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY ::

~ cheri enna ~

have a prosperous 20 AB (After Birth) year.

be blessed with good health.

stay really happy. always. really.

always bring me around in your mickey mouse.

*smooch*

really.

FM channel: kiky querido

a big special thank you to ..

A very big thanks to 12 wonderful people. May Allah bless you. Amin.
zah
shikin
aishah
rabz
azmi
syahid
siddique
nor mamat
julie
asy
rozi
ida

for the super duper lovely blue jack purcell shoe.

big thanks to zah
for the lovely big "card". so sweet of u to make it n laminate it.
n for d lovely sajak.
n the lovely coochie cake.

gonna share with all.here's what zah wrote..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
To one of the wonderful heads i ever had...

Zaman berzaman kini berlalu,
Alangkah bahagia telah bertemu;
Kawan yang gila lagi tak malu,
Ikhlas kukatakan aku tak jemu.

Thank you for all your guidance and patience...

Fromt the ever cheerful gal,
Zahillah'05

to dear enna,
thanks for d wonderful cap tt ive been eyeing.
and the coolest shades ive been wanting to get.
kinda shock seeing you at topman.
but was able to creep out of d shop with kin.
hope u like the mickey mouse i got for u.
n d 2 butt-naked old couple. heh.

so touching. best belated birthday ever.
never had so much prezzies. *sobs*

thanks to 12 wonderful frens.
and 1 lovely girl.

ill share the pics of all the prezzies when i got the pic from enna.
pictures noone saw cos we took it at bedok when all have gone home.
stay tune !

FM channel: kiky

shit do happens. its not just in the toilets.

REVENGE OF THE SITH SHIT

just some shit feelings.
some things tt i feel has been happening to me.
shit things.



maybe this shit too.



ever felt like a bomb was thrown to you? even when u tried running away or don't want it?
i did.
shit happens.




that's it.
basically shit.

FM channel: shittsy

priceless moment

I am going to share a priceless moment with everyone. Not even Mastercard can pay for it. Not even VISA. Or Diners Club. Even American Express. And would NETS come close to pay for it. No. Priceless. Not for all the money in the world can give.
Here goes...
Priceless. Magic.

Date: 29/06/2005
Location: Civic Clinic
What: Enna just had an eye operation

SAY CHEESE! OUCH!

* This photo was taken after undergoing the most disgusting and gruelling event. I had to watch the entire process of the doctor digging into her eyes. Thanks for that priceless moment.

FM Channel: kiky

hmm..not so true

Get to know yourself better

1 Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

2 The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

3 Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

4 The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

5 Your views on education:Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

6 The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

7 How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

8 What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

9 Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

I did the test found on amin's blog. n im not so sure if its true about me. especially no. 4. haha do i flirt?! do i seduce?! ish ish ish. dono la eh. need ur opinion on it. is it true about me? cos im not so sure about it. help! tag on my blog! on ur mark! get set ! tag!!!!

FM channel: dreamy

barf-barf-barf day.. a soldier story.

didnt feel anything today. except for d fact i am no longer a "teen" and now gonna have a big fat number 2 infront of everything. 20. twenty. dua puloh. how come i dont feel any drastic or cool what-so-ever transactions from being a "____teen" to being a "twenty".

had to work full shift today. again. and again. and again. all due to shortage of manpower. how many full shifts am i gonna do again.. damn tired. lucky no shortage of money while doing ticketig. if not, also cant pay. my money balance is officially zero. zilch. none. nil. sifar. kosong. O. anybody care to spare a penny? thinking of fasting. cos no money for lunch already. haha. wth..

to those who took d trouble and spared their precious time to sms me to wish me. thanks so much. appreciate it. to those that didnt. well. eat ur own shorts. haha. k dont. dont want u to die eating tt. maybe u cud eat d one inside your shorts.

haiz. no money. no money to even buy myself a small itsy bitsy cake. so hello 20. boohoo 20. no celebrations for u 20. too bad. aww..

want to share a story i learnt during the weekend. here goes..

the soldier, the lady and WW2.

Once upon a time during World War 2, there was an American soldier being posted to fight the war in Europe. Before he went there, he had loaned out a book of poetry from the library. there was no PSP or Nokia handphones back then. So a poetry book was the best form of entertainment. i suppose.

so whilst fighting the war, he was also able to read the poetry book during his free time. the book was written by an American lady. from there, he became deeply in love with her poetry. in the book was also the address of the author. thus he wrote a letter of appraisal to her.

then ever since the first letter, they became pen pals. always writing to each other even during the peak period of the war. this was the MSN messenger or mIRC back then.

and they fell in love with each other even though they never seen each other before. the soldier ever asked her once if she could send him a picture of her. but the lady only replied, "if our love is true, my picture is irrelavant." and he agreed on tt.

soon after the war, they finally agreed to meet each other. the lady decided that they were to meet in a Boston train station. and if their love is really2 true. they would finally meet each other. but then the soldier was dumb enough not to ask what time they were to meet. all he was able to know was that he was to carry the poetry book with him. and that to recognise the lady, she would be carrying a rose. so he came pretty early that day. right when the clock struck midnight he was there already. waiting.

noon came. it was the busy period. everyone was rushing here and there. the soldier still waiting with anticipation. then suddenly he saw one of the most beautiful things he ever saw. a lady in a green dress was walking towards him. he perspired. "this could be my most lucky day ever. even better than surviving thewar!", he thought. he gripped his book tight. then suddenly he noticed something unusual. the greend dress lady wasnt holding any rose ! and at that moment he saw someone far behind her standing alone. holding a rose. she was one of the most unsightful things he ever saw! his heart broke. he saw a lady exactly the same size as the one in Shallow Hal. weighing at a weight even cows are lighter.

the next moment the green dress pretty lady walked past him and asked "gg my way?" sexily. he was torn. between pretty pretty girl or ugly girl with rose. he knew that he bonded and fell in love with her during the letter sessions. but little did he expect to see something like that!

he finally made a decision. sticking to his principles and morals, he took a deep breath and walked towards the "fugly" lady with rose. and as he stood infront of her he asked,"hi. im so-and-so-i-forgot-the-name."

the lady replied,"who are you? cos i have no idea what's going on. that lady in the green dress told me to hold this rose and wait here."

and as the soldier looked behind to find the green dress lady, he saw her, smiling and chuckling. he proved his worthy love for her.

- what you see may not be what you would expect it to be. but if you try and take a look at it closer, it could turn out to be something greater than you can ever expect. - mike wilson *


*after some consideration from cheri's comments, ive decided to correct my mistakes

FM Channel: dreamy

finally

FINALLY !!!!

NO MORE !!!!!!!!!!!!! ~

NO MORE !!!!!!!!!!! ~

As of TODAY, i am officially out of the 1-year driving probation!
woohoo !
congrats to nadi peeps for getting the 5-year contract with dramatec.
Happy Birthday to all June Babies.
especially to me,me and me. not yet. but gonna be soon !*

*hint hint. winks.

501.

I'll give you the space and you'll give me mine.
That's how we do.
Levi's 501 The Original.

/
sad but true.
happy but false.
what is it that needs to be done?
space.
infinite space.
i think i'll hitchhike to the Milky Way.
see you.
/

They can take the punishment. Can you?
Levi's 501 Scarred Jeans.

this entry is all shitty

watched madagaskar mr & mrs smith already yeay! no money already! i think so.

been working recently too. just started so couldnt update much. wont say much about work but only wanna say to the butt-kissing, power-worshipping ppl tt wat-the-hell do wateva u want, ur gonna be seeing me in 3 more months anyway. so fark the bossy and butt-kissing attitude. im here to work and get paid. period. but reali. i like the way it is done. so much fun working. u ppl just light up the drama. u guys rock! and ill give a fark u for that!

~_~

do we have to re-write some stuff that have been said?

do we have to re-write the history?

was it all lies?

or was it the truth?

was it an error?

or was it an opportunity?

were we too early or too late?

was i too early or too late?

so i was too late?

or i was too early?

tell me. or ull never know.

don't wait too long. before i go.

i'll be waiting. again.

like i've always been.

~_~

do not give a watever-word care over what has been written.

you have been warned.

all's shitty.

kerepek pedas!!

i wonder how it happened. but i watched Madagaskar on wednesday wit cheri. its weird when ur money runs so damn low but u can stil save for ur beloved one. haiz. beloved. loved. love. re-loved. returned love?*

move it move it ! Madagaskar is a cool movie.

anyway funny thing happen yesterday. food seem to hate us.
(before gym) drank mixed soya bean with chin chau and keropok ikan. chin chau tasted abit bland. keropok ikan had no taste. blardy tasteless. waste my $1.

(after gym) let it be known that TP business school's vending machine likes to eat up 50 sen coins. tried to buy kerepek pedas. was so hungry. left with only 50 sen. and whilst anticipating it to drop, it didnt. it got stuck. blardy hell. kempunan siot! meleleh air liur tgk tu benda tak jatuh². in the end 2 hobbits tried to bang the vending machine to who-knows make it drop. anyway can u guys imagine sapinah trying to shake the big vending machine all by herself? she did. but oh well it didnt work. the vending machine refused to budge either. haha! funny like hell. small ant tried to move a big elephant. anyway..damn vending machine. ate my 50 sens!! blardy vending machine even hurt my arm!!**

i love psychotic penguins!***

* hoo?
** tried to knock it down. in the end i was knocked down..
*** still feeling kempunan of that kerepek pedas

myth.

myth
· n.
1 a traditional story concerning the early history of a people or explaining a natural or social phenomenon, and typically involving supernatural beings or events.
2 a widely held but false belief. Ø a fictitious person or thing. Ø an exaggerated or idealized conception of a person or thing.
– DERIVATIVES mythic adj. mythical adj. mythically adv.
– ORIGIN C19 (earlier (C17) as mythic): from mod. L. mythus, via late L. from Gk muthos.

myths as we know are just stories. stories that we hoped would happen. we hoped there would be unicorns. we hoped there would be a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. we hoped that there would be flying and talking dragons like the sean connery voice-alike dragon in Dragonheart. we hoped there would be care bears. spiderman. the x-men. smurfs. characters from enid blyton's books. and so on. but as we know they're all myths. fictional characters. fictional stories.

but myths won't be myths without hoping. we hope for world peace. we hope for bush not to wear an iPod inside his suit. we hope for everything to go smoothly. we hope for perfection. we hope for money to rain form the sky. we hope for so many things. but did they ever go as we want them to be or as we hoped ? these are myths. it will continue to be myths.

point is, hope is just a mythical word.

hope
· n.
1 a feeling of expectation and desire. Ø a person or thing that gives cause for hope. Ø grounds for hoping.
2 archaic a feeling of trust.
3 a mythical word.
· v. expect and desire. Ø intend if possible to do something.
– PHRASES hope against hope cling to a mere possibility. not a (or some) hope informal no chance at all.
– DERIVATIVES hoper n.
– ORIGIN OE hopa (n.), hopian (v.), of Gmc origin.

Bush with an iPod. A sign of hope?

bore. bored. boredom. boredified. borey. boreful. borefully. im so bored.

d title says it all. im so freaking bored. nothing to do. work starts in 1 more week. stupid me didnt clarify what i meant by "i can start probably next wk". n she tot it was 1 more week. i want to start today for goodness! nevermind. can go do something for for 1 more week before work starts. hmm "something". what can i do with something...?*

cash running lower n lower. unsurprisingly. although im not sure how low it can run either. craving so many things. argh. food. shoes. clothes. mp3 player**. new computer. food. hopefully i can save more with my pay this time round. hopefully.***

hmm thinking what i should do now. pondering my choices..
1. bathe. eat. gym.
2. bathe. eat. sleep.
3. bathe. eat. tv.
4. bathe. eat. xbox.
5. bathe. eat.

one thing's for sure. all of the choices have me do an important thing. what time is it anyway...****

* nothing! argh!!
** my birthday's on the 23 june. but that's not the point. felt like saying it.
*** what can hope do.. hah!
**** something sure smells fishy around here.. what can it be uh?

woke up dear have you? nearly whole day yesterday u did sleep. hoo.

voices in the head

a crazy weekend.
all ups and downs. like the roller coaster i took on saturday.
up and downs. like the path i rode on my bike on monday.
out of sorts. sorted out.
its funny. i wasn't thinking of anything. but my head hurts. funny. haha.

too many voices in my head.
cant even recognise them. who r u all?
damn those voices.
stop talking. all of you. go away.

my fault. ur fault. our fault. nobody's fault.
probably. probably not.
im not here. ur not here. but we're here. funny. haha.

yesterday. the past.
today. the present.
tomorrow. thr future.
everybody has pasts.
don regret about the pasts.
it's there. work on it. improve it. for tomorrow.
tomorrow where the future happens.
work it. build it. dream it.
but don forget about today. the present. the most important.
cos without today, there's no tomorrow.

love you. true. always. yesterday. today. tomorrow.


boxcar racers - tiny voices
i've been all pinched up since saturday
i've run my self dry of excellence
16 long years in-hale the bullshit in
whatever i said on saturday
whatever i did i'll do it all again
19 marks up walls
each year one short fall of

tiny voices, make things harder
everybody will be let down
everybody will be let down

what is this for ex-parking lot
the dreamers go buy they never stop
20 plus 5 in let the youth cave in

tiny voices, make things harder
everybody will be let down
everybody will be let down

tiny voices make things harder
tiny voices make things harder
everybody will be let down
everybody will be let down
everybody will be let down
everybody will be let down

sorry just dont solve it all

Feeling a bit emo right now. and the funny thing is i am really not quite sure why and for god-knows-what reason. probably this dinodi-cinta tragika have been traumatising me lately.*
anyway since my dear cheri is sleeping right now, i could type out abit on what i was thinking a couple of seconds ago... hee..**

So i was thinking of all those small fights, big quarrels, cool arguments, chilli hot differences, those punches u gave me, those kisses and pecks i gave u back*** that we had in our already 1 yr plus long being together****. well most of them were caused by me of course. i started it. and i admit it. heh~. *****

Anyway for all those disagreements that we had one party ended up saying the problem-solver word "sorry". As a kid, that magic word sure comes in handy for mom n dad.... anyway back to the point.. thinking back, after saying it, we would end up in the same situation again probably the next night. it's true that all relationships have ups and downs. and i realised i kinda cherished those downs that we had. it felt like it made us,or atleast one party, stronger.

i think i've said sorry more times than the number of hair on gandhi's head. yes i really meant the sorries that i said but maybe its not enough. well for me. maybe it's time i atleast do something extraordinary for her. probably pick her up and fly her to the top of eiffel tower? or capture that unicorn for her to keep as a pet? or give her a trip around the world on a yacht? or buy her those designer shoes she's been craving about? or how about dinner by the sea in the white sands of tenerife? or maybe just do something simple and sweet for her.......

Well that's for me to figure out... ******

* Sesingkat waktu itu, aku masih... dammit there goes the song in my head again.. argh!
** Beware to all, this could get pretty jiwang. =p
*** hey it's true! i don hit her back ! weee~
**** hoorah !
***** not sure what's this asterisk is for but i like the 5 stars
****** yeah right...

puppy cig. puppy respect. can puppy get lost

puppy*!!! i shud never have given too much puppy respect to u. no puppy point i gave my respect to u. what did u puppy gave me? puppy-hole! i gave tt puppy small respect to u, n wat u gave me?! u puppy put ur bloody puppy smelly feet on my head!! take tt puppy cig n shove it up ur mother puppy hole !!!!!! u even puppy dare to do tt puppy shit to my face!! what the puppy?! what i'm invisible or what !!??!! i puppy shit gave u my respect n wat did u puppy did to it !! get ur mother puppy self away before ill puppy shove a puppy stick up ur puppy puppy-hole!!! u can puppy get lost. u just lost my puppy respect, dude.

*Due to ratings advisory, all explicit words have been changed to the word - puppy.

another chapter begins..

ok life in temasek poly is nearly over now. ive now officially finished with my diploma. ive now officially done with involvements in school. i tink

pentas is over! and i tot we all put up a good show. applaud~
nadi sentosa outing was great! too bad there were no pics to share.. best moment: sazly being warned by the lifeguard. haha!

announcements:
> graduated from TP with dip. in Telecommunications
> zah is now d new head of nadi! hahaha. all d best to u guys
> i'm gg for a holiday to tekong on 10th september. yeah! finally an overseas holiday! hmpf..

to nadi peeps. have an exciting days ahead! nice working with all of ya!

the eye

gonna talk abit bout the eye, the cornea or the human video in dis entry.

the 1st eye:
watched the eye 10 with cheri yesterday. d show was great!! scary thru out the show. kinda of shock-scary kind. but it was gd. been along time watched a horror movie. recommended for those who want a bit of a good scare. but i wonder why i laughed at some parts of d show. dear was so scared she kept hiding under her jacket. ahah.. =P

the 2nd eye:
cudnt wake up dis morning for a meeting!! cudnt open up my eyes !!! sorie kin, rabz.. *1st hehe~* n other mag peeps affected. dono y i slept like a log thru out d whole morning. only woke up at 12. by den meeting shud be da abis pon.. woke up checked my hp. kin sms angrily already *2nd hehheeee* n den i slept back.. *3rd heeeeeeheeeee* onlie woke up 1 hr later... arghhh gotta check my eyesss justt cant open demm in d morning ! anyone ever encountered a feeling tt u thot ur awake in dis real world but found out later tt it was just a dream? weird huh.. ive been having those dreams lately.. felt so damn real. but den was just a dream. luckily im relieved i woke up.. u wudnt wanna know d dreams. bad things always happen in my dreams lately...

the 3rd eye:
ive gotta finish reading this lord of the rings book fast!!! reading out every detail of the eye of sauron n stuff. non-freaks wont know wat im saying anyway... im so slow in reading books or novels.. its a great book by the way. but i got tired reading quite fast.. noooo...watching the movie wasnt enuff for me.. ive gotta read it !!! im a lotr freak i think... dear says so.. even mom always tegur me. she says i watch "my adik" too much.. "my adik" is gollum-smeagol anyway... warghhh !!! grrrr....!!! well i love the story. love the movie. love every single inch of it. and im a lotr freak. its maaaaaiiiii purrrrr-recioussssssssss!!! yours too???

gotta find a job..need the extra cash. any vacancy out der? 1 day down. a few more months to go till i receive my enlistment letter...
can my xbox ever be modifiedd!!! its been 3 wks! and im bored not having it at home!!!! i neeeeeed maiiiiiii prrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeecioussssssssssssssssssssssssssss. oops.

can life get any better?

sorry. we're done now.

Sorry...................................i cant do dis anymore............................. we're done now......................... im through with you already.......................................we just have to part............................. sorry Temasek Poly...... =P

School's OUT!!! HOLIDAYS ARE IN!!! Exam's Over !!!!! Yeahh!!! on the other hand....oh no...NS is coming near......

yessa. no more late coming to school!! no more waking up in d morning and figuring where did i put those notes!!! no more running and trying to catch d bus!!! no more cramming into the bus at 0830am!!! no more sleeping late!! hmm tt shudnt be right. i have to sleep late to catch those tv shows.... anyway, no more of those routiness!!!

phewww! relieved! hope ill pass my subjects tho...

hmmm..err...so now what???? *lost*

final exam's coming!

my last final exam is coming. school's coming to an end. hmm am i going to miss poly life? ive no answer to tt. probably ive to wait after it ends.
yeah! im getting paid for APM! and after 1 month now i just know tt im gonna get paid!!! wooO!

ok back to studying... argh broadcast is so theorryyyy!!!!!! so much to study!! so lil timeee!!!!

ok byeek!
thanks dear. love u! smooooocheeesss!